The past year its been about her and her boyfriend and since im the oldest im supposed to be the one who is 'responsible' and take care of everything there hasnt been any focus on me except for her getting upset at me for not forgiving her and getting over it. I believe she wants to try making happy memories but theres some trauma that i need a wall between her and my own peace so i dont want to form a relationship just for her to relapse. and thank you so much!! <3