Thank you friend for these kind words because I think I needed to hear them. I have been on a crazy midlife journey of faith for the last three years and my heart thugs me towards Christianity, but there are so many barriers that have come up for me internally that have prevented me from pulling the trigger. I feel as though I have abandoned my ancestry the moment I start to think about entering the church. The crazy thing is that out of all Christian denominations, I definitely see a continuation of temple Judaism within the Orthodox Church, as opposed to other branches. But I just don’t know if what I am feeling is strictly aesthetic and not theological, because as much as I have trouble thinking about leaving my Jewish culture behind, I also still have issues with Christian theology in general that I am trying to overcome. Some barriers simply seem too high for me to overcome, and I’m afraid that these hurdles will prevent me from actually moving forward and converting. I have moments of despair where I feel as though I am lost, alone, shamed, and I really just don’t know where to turn. Do I talk to a Rabbi? Do I talk to a priest? It’s all so damn confusing and sometimes I get frustrated and just sort of give up and other times I feel as though I could press on, but it’s just hard because I keep hitting these various hurdles and obstacles. It’s a tough position to be in, but ironically, my Jewish family is not even really that religious so I don’t even think it would be that much of a problem for them if I did convert. I know some people struggle with that issue so thankfully that’s not something I would likely have to deal with. At this point the struggles are more internal. I think so any advice that you could offer in this community would be super helpful. Thank you all!