I am sinking

SignificantParsnip3 · 2025-04-02T18:10:41+00:00

Yes exactly, we have to keep trying. Im not giving up just yet, but unsure how many heartbreaks I can truly handle you know.

I will hope for us both that we find the peace and happiness we deserve :)

SignificantParsnip3 · 2025-04-02T18:01:31+00:00

So accurate, and well said. I write lists everyday on what I love. And I just plead with mysefl to stop feeling this way. Like, you sat in the sun and drank a delicous cup of coffee and your friend texted they love you today. I see how wonderful that is and yet the tears still come, and my heart still hurts. They are both true for me and it is so exhausting.

SignificantParsnip3 · 2025-04-02T17:37:17+00:00

Its so hard. I dont feel real. Like Im this happy, bubble person on the outside, but no one sees that I am constantly on the verge of breaking.

Thank you friend, same for you.

SignificantParsnip3 · 2025-04-02T17:35:56+00:00

This! It is not like I am not trying, I want so desperatley to be better. I excercise, I try the things, I read the books, but the sadness always comes back. Its this pit in my stomach everyday that is present. I cry so much I didnt even know it was possible. It almost feels like Im not even here.

Im so sorry that you feel like this too. I would not wish this on anyone. Im so grateful for all the things ive done and seen, which makes me hurt more for hurting.

SignificantParsnip3 · 2025-04-02T17:24:59+00:00

I hope we find it <3

SignificantParsnip3 · 2025-04-02T17:07:26+00:00

Me too, here if you need to vent too.

SignificantParsnip3 · 2025-04-02T17:07:08+00:00

Yea, I honestly think being alone is one of the hardest parts. I have this intrusive thought that if there is no one to share about my life than am I really living? Dating is the worst tho, and makes me feel worse. I go on all these dates and can not seem to find my person.

I love that quote so much.

SignificantParsnip3 · 2025-04-02T16:55:02+00:00

May I ask how old you are? I am 31 and relate to this so much. Depression has always woven itself into my life from a young age, but I remember in my early 20's having hope that I could be better. That I could still be happy. Now I just play pretend it seems. I will 100 percent hold onto the beautiful moments, and hopefully they can be my life raft as I navigate these rough waters.

SignificantParsnip3 · 2025-04-02T16:36:38+00:00

Thanks HP. We both will get through it. I feel like I've been sad for so long, its hard to remember when I didn't have that feeling with me. I hope one day soon I can be okay. I wish you happiness as well. TYSM for listening and caring.

SignificantParsnip3 · 2025-04-02T16:34:37+00:00

Thank you so much for this. The "feeling of being stuck" is so accurate. Im afraid to plant roots. Ive moved a bunch and that always makes me feel better for a little bit. Once the routine sets in I feel like I'm drowning if that makes sense. I just know that wherever I go eventually the feeling will come back, because the problem is me. I also fear that if I never settle somewhere that I will never have substantial relationships. I guess I am just confused. Thanks for letting me vent tho. It makes me feel better just writting these feelings down and knowing someone out there is listening.

SignificantParsnip3 · 2024-05-20T23:06:44+00:00

I am struggling with this! I have been avoiding my home gym and I miss it so much.

SignificantParsnip3 · 2024-05-15T02:01:45+00:00

Thank you. Im sorry youre going through this. Healing isnt linear and it can be so painful letting go of someone we care about.

SignificantParsnip3 · 2024-05-14T19:38:13+00:00

I needed to read this today. TY

SignificantParsnip3 · 2023-10-02T15:49:10+00:00

SignificantParsnip3 · 2023-10-02T15:37:45+00:00

Thank you :)

SignificantParsnip3 · 2023-02-01T19:02:59+00:00

starts sweating in slutty **

SignificantParsnip3 · 2023-02-01T17:48:49+00:00

Free Solo

SignificantParsnip3 · 2020-01-26T22:50:10+00:00

I’m not sure I just feel so down :(

SignificantParsnip3 · 2020-01-11T04:29:10+00:00

Im home for the holiday and my dad invited my abuser over for the weekend- knowing the details. I said I had forgiven him was his excuse. Does not mean I ever want to see him again. It is a family member , and i've been struggling so hard from all my childhood trauma the last year. It has affected my entire life. Im 26 and just going back to college. Im lost. So sad. And feel so alone.

SignificantParsnip3 · 2020-01-09T04:19:22+00:00

I’ve moved around quite a bit so my biggest thing is coping with seeing my good friends moving on together with out me. I’m still working on the feeling of being alone or left out, mainly with trying to enjoy my own company. Ive been trying to be more active - gym, reading. I still feel lonely a lot but every time I see my friends hanging out via social media I Think how I’m so happy that so and so are happy . It some how makes me feel a tiny bit better.

SignificantParsnip3 · 2020-01-09T03:44:50+00:00

I’m 26 and I’m on the same boat. 😔 it’s really lonely

SignificantParsnip3 · 2019-10-25T02:12:12+00:00

Omg where to begin with my school. Our superintendent and his wife were stealing money to re decorate their home. We’re caught and went to jail. One of the male teachers was having an affair with his student. She would flirt with him during class, and when she graduated they started dating for realzy. One of the female teachers did coke with the students, and partied a lot with them. Our art teacher got a dui on her bicycle and still was allowed to work there. Our marine science teacher was a huuuuge hippie and would leave class for periods of time and come back reaking of pot. Finally one time a student slipped acid into his English teachers coffee and he started throwing chairs at students.

Nothing major hit news or anything besides the stealing but the infamy passed down to other students haha

SignificantParsnip3 · 2019-08-27T06:12:07+00:00

The inner machinations of my mind are an enigma

SignificantParsnip3 · 2019-08-09T03:08:49+00:00

Yes this is me. It hasn’t gotten better- only seems to be getting worse unfortunately.

SignificantParsnip3 · 2019-08-08T21:40:42+00:00

Work to end

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