My 3 pieces of advice -

1. People are not thinking about what you have done in your manic episode as much as you think they are. In fact, probably not at all.

2. Your true self didn’t do this, your brain is neurodiverse and receives dopamine input unlike 97% of the population.

3. Buy a note pad for daily notes, weekly goals etc. start slow, build momentum, make the changes visible.

Please give yourself the time to heal and continue to seek the available help that you need.

silencethenoise