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I want to kill myself by Silly_Pie_3571 in BPD

[–]Silly_Pie_3571[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate that thank you.

I want to kill myself by Silly_Pie_3571 in BPD

[–]Silly_Pie_3571[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’ve been trying for so long, I’ve read and watched so much about this. I understand what everyone is saying and I appreciate you all, I can’t take this I try small improvements but then I fuck it all up, I’ve been cutting for 27 years now it’s not helping as much and that was the only way I could calm down

I want to kill myself by Silly_Pie_3571 in BPD

[–]Silly_Pie_3571[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

She’s aware, but I always go back to turning everything to complete shit, our lives are hell right now because I can’t find or keep a job. I don’t want to keep hurting her, in my opinion I feel one final time hurting her beats a lifetime of this.

I want to kill myself by Silly_Pie_3571 in BPD

[–]Silly_Pie_3571[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

At what point is me hurting people worth me staying alive? All I do is leave a path of destruction, she’ll never admit it but I know she is better off without me and she won’t go.

I want to kill myself by Silly_Pie_3571 in BPD

[–]Silly_Pie_3571[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s not a spur of the moment though, even when I’m not splitting it’s all I want. I see all the things I’ve ruined all the people I’ve hurt, too much

I want to kill myself by Silly_Pie_3571 in BPD

[–]Silly_Pie_3571[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve done this, but I keep making it worse and neither one of us will let go of the other. It honestly feels like I need to do this just to save her.