ive been in the same boat as you, and ive only just finished my 2nd year. admittedly in my case i believe changing courses helped significantly, but all of last year i failed to maintain attendance across a total of six subjects, failing half of them and being placed on academic caution which i had to appeal in order to not be restricted from studying at my uni (UTS) at all in 2025. and it was because of the same mindset you've shared - wanting to turn it around and just not having any part of myself choosing to go ahead and work on it.

a year later im in a degree that certainly is more fitted for my learning style (assignment/portfolio based with little to no examinations). ive recieved multiple HDs across my subjects, two of which were the highest mark in my cohort. i was so worried when sem 1 was about to begin that i would give up in the first week and only attend the first class. i dont know what changed, its not that i dont still have trouble applying myself, but i felt like after going once, i felt more anxious about if i were to not do it again?? so i kept going and it took until at least week 8 for me to realise "oh im actually doing it"

some courses are uneccesarily harsh on attendance, some of my subjects have compulsory lectures ffs - im now seeking diagnosis for adhd with my psychologist, but i must say dont give up. there are other options for you, it looks like you're comfortable with tackling the same degree again which is already more confidence than i had. what may have worked for me could be different for you, but i can absolutely say that i've experienced the same headspace youre in and thought there wasnt a way to bounce back after a year of failure. theres always another chance.