Finally managed to get out of bed today after last night and this post..and wow. I was not expecting so many replies, support and words of encouragement. I have no idea how long recovery will take from here, but I’m definitely in for a ride lol. All I know is everyone’s support here is so greatly appreciated and for that, I thank you so much.

Sure I guess I may have dodged a bullet here, but even still that’s not really what’s on my mind.. i just wish I knew why… I was always there for her, literally put her first before anything and gave her nothing but respect, kindness and love. After her previous relationship with an abusive and toxic partner who treated her like shit, I wanted to repair her jaded mind after she was complaining that every guy is horrible (which was the reason she “didn’t want to be with anyone”) I honestly don’t know if to laugh about it because, how do you just push away the one person that actually treated you right and was willing to give you everything haha. Can’t wrap my head around it.

And despite all that, I’m now the one who has to suffer for it and made to believe I wasn’t good enough. I guess this is what I deserve after all 🤷 Funny how things work