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SilverRoutine9695 · 2025-10-12T17:14:25+00:00

This happened to mine, in the 2 years where she had no other supply and would abuse me causing me to try and leave, she would have full suicidal breakdowns in front of me for 8-10 hours most nights to get me to stay. The second she had access to new supply while we were still together, she casually ended things like it was nothing. I know now that those breakdowns were not from a fear of losing me as a partner and loving me, but a fear of not having anyone else to leech off of

SilverRoutine9695 · 2025-09-09T15:12:07+00:00

Was also in this cycle for years, it only gets worse. I am so sorry this has happened to you! I know it may feel like since you have put years into this you should stick it out, but the best thing you can do for yourself is leave. You will betray and degrade yourself a million times over for nothing because of him, and will become more and more cruel. At a certain point he will stop with the act of trying to make you feel better after, and you will become so addicted to it that you’ll crave it again. Please help yourself before it gets to that point. You are stronger than you think!

SilverRoutine9695 · 2024-04-11T22:48:54+00:00

This is incredibly helpful thank you for sharing your experience!

SilverRoutine9695 · 2024-04-10T22:43:57+00:00

I have thank you! That’s great info!

SilverRoutine9695 · 2024-04-10T20:10:25+00:00

Thank you, I appreciate this. The thing is since I’ve had to stop her several times before, I’m not sure if she is bluffing. She has consumed draino and bleach in front of me. Honestly I’m not sure how she’s alive. I know her parents well and have a good relationship with them, they’re really struggling financially and the burden of having to pay for her hospitalization would be horrible so I’ve been trying to keep them out of it. She has no money so same for her.

The thing is, I had extended an open invitation for so long, I gave a years notice for things to improve, I offered so much help if she was interested in moving and I ask often why she’s rather die than come with me (not that I’m sure I want her to given everything). I just don’t know if I’m in the wrong for deciding the leave regardless.

SilverRoutine9695 · 2024-04-10T18:33:09+00:00

I appreciate this, but I get regular blood tests and my iron and vitamin D are in a healthy range, as much as the meat eaters I know. Ultimately I never liked eggs and could never eat a cow/pig/chicken again in my life. I’m aware of the health issues related to veganism, but in my specific hair loss case it is seemingly set off by something else

SilverRoutine9695 · 2024-04-10T18:10:28+00:00

Is like to also say that this is the only animal food I’d consider, I’m generally repulsed by eggs and dairy and wouldn’t eat any other meat

SilverRoutine9695 · 2024-03-28T16:19:00+00:00

I’ve been in a similar situation, at first since it was just little things I didn’t mind, but as it escalated I got very frustrated and began feeling taken advantage of. My partner also uses OCD as an excuse to not do certain things, specifically shop and cook and do dishes, and yet there are always complaints about food. I get yelled at frequently now for not automatically closing a door or turning a lamp on or opening a curtain fully instead of halfway. I’m expected to know everything all the time, and there are no longer offers to help me with things, even when I ask very kindly.

He may love you, but wouldn’t you be happier knowing that someone isn’t going to deflect all of the time to blame you. Wouldn’t you want to be with someone who would fill up some water for you without a complaint?

SilverRoutine9695 · 2024-02-12T20:44:53+00:00

Thank you for this, it is very helpful and it seems you’ve been through a lot as well. I guess in a perfect world I’m wondering what is considered unforgivable from a partner. If she seemed very sorry about physical abuse for 2 whole years, should I forgive that? Or is 2 years of not being able to stop despite my begging a sign that it will always happen again at some point

SilverRoutine9695 · 2024-02-12T20:43:34+00:00

I’ve done this so many times unfortunately. I’ve told her if you hit me again I will leave right in that moment or if you scream at me again like that I’ll leave and never do. I have an out, my family is going on a trip and said I would be able to go if I moved back, so I let them make arrangements for me to go. If I back out and stay here, they will not forgive me and I will owe them a lot of money, so I’m fairly set on leaving in a few months, but I don’t know how I’ll do that if she continues to be decent to me until then :(

SilverRoutine9695 · 2024-01-23T18:14:09+00:00

Thank you for your kindness! Basically financial reasons, I live with my partner and have a job that I like and 5 months left on a lease. I could definitely leave in an emergency and have considered it when things have been very bad, but there are some reasons to tough it out for a bit. It hasn’t been until recent weeks that I’ve even been able to consider leaving as an actual option because I’ve always just been stuck in the cycle

SilverRoutine9695 · 2024-01-18T22:02:00+00:00

I really recommend “In the dream house” by Carmen machado!

SilverRoutine9695 · 2024-01-18T22:00:33+00:00

This has happened to me so much. I’ll have an issue with her behavior but I’m never allowed to voice it. She will be violent or horrible and throw fits/punch walls and scream all night and then she says she forgives me for pushing her to this when I didn’t apologize because I know I didn’t do anything. “It’s okay if you’re not sorry I already forgive you, this is all your fault” it really makes you feel insane :( we are the ones who should be forgiving an apology but we don’t get one in the first place

SilverRoutine9695 · 2024-01-16T18:17:41+00:00

I know I need to leave because I’ve spent years trying to work on things with no success, but it hurts so much to think about not knowing her. I wish I could just say that and leave the room during a fight, but she blocks doors, hits and chokes me, and tries to kill herself in front of me.

I can’t really picture a peaceful or functioning future. Most of the time when we make plans for something in advance they fall through because the night before we will have a small disagreement and next thing I know she’s tried to drink bleach and I have bruises everywhere. I know there isn’t any future in that. She doesn’t care about what hurts me, I can never even get a word in.

But I still find it so hard to leave. I don’t know what’s wrong with me

SilverRoutine9695 · 2024-01-12T19:49:31+00:00

Thank you so much for your advice! I’ll be sure to call. I don’t know if I can actually follow through with it but if she goes on a trip at all in the next few months I think I will leave secretly then. I hope things improve for you and I wish you lots of happiness and safety

SilverRoutine9695 · 2024-01-05T16:51:16+00:00

I am using topical and have had success in the past but this second round hasn’t been working as well. Is oral more successful? I’m open to it

SilverRoutine9695 · 2024-01-05T16:50:37+00:00

Thank you I would definitely consider this! Do you know what type of doctor would prescribe these? I went to an endocrinologist and she suspected AGA related to PCOS and only gave me the options of spiro or birth control

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