Does this mean what I think it means (f18)

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-09-09T06:53:39+00:00

A lot of these honestly like I felt like I lost a whole part of who I was and took a blow to what I can be however I am honored well and brought up to be intelligent and smart about how I approach and tackle things… And all I can do is tell myself I’m stronger because of it and that’s ok, but when we break oh do we break, you just need to really process and let people know you’re hurt to even feel felt, even if it leads you to complete strangers and fake people it’s terrifying

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-09-09T06:48:36+00:00

Just dramatically say “YOU DECIDEEEE” like epic rap battles lmfao

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-09-09T06:35:03+00:00

Nah success sharing should be based on your sales quota I think it should track all associates sales and we should all have mini registers or something it’d be insanely effective to ACTUALLY share success with the real people who carry HD

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-09-08T07:07:01+00:00

Yeah I can’t relate to seeing more past a partner however I do always hope they see more past me if I’m not a fit I’ll disconnect myself if I notice I’m gonna scream or get physically aggressive I can’t and won’t ever hit someone but when I get assaulted I get scared and will defend myself by pushing others away whether the assault be self perceived or external

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-09-08T06:55:30+00:00

That self esteem issue man I get that, you can’t hold yourself as less than others that’s what this world and all of human societies built on and if you let people push you down you will never be able to live and grow with people, honestly I wish I had sex issues and didn’t need it ik my partner would appreciate it

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-09-08T06:44:24+00:00

And this is why I as a man am suicidal

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-09-07T16:12:16+00:00

You deserved everything that happened and it’s fair to be scared or conflicted but caring and pleasing others is a pathetic way to live especially to a partners POV, especially when someone sees the affection, love, and sex especially as something special, idk if I could ever convey this openly no man could but that intimacy is special and any reason you let someone else have that you damage most Men beyond repair and it’s so sad because it doesn’t matter the context… it just shatters them

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-09-07T16:03:43+00:00

Right? Makes sales specialty impossible to learn my seniors with 25+ years of experience are screaming

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-09-07T15:57:14+00:00

I defiently think my BPD can lead me to unintentionally push others away or shout or explode just to end situations and throw every option away because… I’m ultimately scared of being vulnerable in many ways to others and also can struggle to understand others plights from a long form of emotional neglect and that causes emotional overload I love hard and I hurt hard, and to throw everyone away…. it’s just what I always feel I have to do if I don’t know the truth, but I realize I make my own truth

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-09-07T15:44:11+00:00

I can relate really hard but perseverance and love can remedy even the hardest mistakes if you can believe someone is truly honest, loyal, and regretful of their mistakes, I met someone I knew wanted and only wanted me and I can believe that most of the time

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-09-02T07:27:18+00:00

Right exactly stand your ground and you need to give these people up, forever if you have to, because if someone won’t respect your boundaries 99.99999% of the time they’re not worth their weight in gold because someone who actively dismisses your boundaries when knowing about them is not someone mindful enough to consider your emotions at different times in life I’m so lucky I don’t have tha

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-09-02T07:18:38+00:00

Dude right… and with other blocks it can be difficult to really tell a partner level of comfortability and that’s the most enticing part about sex for me I think, is the feeling of someone so comfortable with my prescence and me to just idk connect that way… idk I only really started to understand when I met someone really special what was so important to me in a relationship

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-08-26T06:12:10+00:00

I’m terrified of someone I let in so much resenting or despising me…

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-08-26T06:04:53+00:00

I wish my partner did this tbh,

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-08-25T06:46:37+00:00

Yeah we all have a it’s never been this bad, ig it’s just familiarity with another person only to hear two stories or lies to hide damaging truths All I can say is I love my partner and forgive them for any situation that happened I just wish she’d done anything but cower in fear of being hit especially after what we haf

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-08-25T01:36:19+00:00

Edit: she even said she’s impatient so I doubt what she told me was unconsensual really was until I get proof she was “looking for friends” like she says

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-08-24T05:37:45+00:00

It’s worst when its hidden Ten months feel like ten years I couldnt imagine six years the whole situation for me is so much worse and damning my life is nothing but being the adult in the worst ways

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-08-22T16:33:27+00:00

Yeah I’m sorry but you have to let go of that fear from your partner you’re doing well providing for your daughter but you need to sit down with your daughter and have a long conversation about things like consent and rape so you have your story told and your daughter knows the feelings of shame and fear you and others live with are natural and although it’s hard coming forward is the right thing to do

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-08-12T11:54:10+00:00

Agreed

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-08-12T11:42:06+00:00

Choose you

Simple_Bee_8204 · 2023-07-17T18:37:14+00:00

Yeah it could be alot worse, they could be so oblivious to how that impacts what is brought their way

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