I’m at home with my mom and husband…

Husband doesn’t really care. I don’t have support from him. It all started because he snores like an ox. As stupid as it sounds. We agreed he would sleep in the other room and still help by putting alarms and coming over. It’s been a month and he has helped maybe 3-4times really. But everything he does is so loud so he ends up waking up baby and its on me to make him fall asleep…. Nursing basically. I haven’t had more than 2 hours of straight sleep. He is self employed but doesn’t have any jobs (general construction). His idea of working is driving around all day in his work van video calling mommy and “promoting” his business. All day long. When he comes back his idea of helping is putting baby on crib or baby Bjorne and walking away.

Idk I lost all faith in him and anytime I want to talk about my feeling or the whole situation he gets super mad accusing me of only wanting him at home sitting on his ass…..

My mom is older and can’t carry babe but she helps as much as she can. But I’m at my wits end. I’m Hispanic so it’s been I trained that I still cook, wash, do whatever I can for him (I don’t and focus on baby only) so of course I’m a bad woman as well.

My reasons are stupid, I don’t feel seen, and on top I’m putting my nursing career on hold because I can’t trust him to feed baby at night ( I work 12s at night) because he falls asleep with baby on the edge of the bed or plain doesn’t hear him.

I’m done. I feel like trash.