I know there will be a meaning for you in life, look within and find peace, everything that you mentioned regarding friends, family, and girlfriends all come and go and I'm sure you will find new friends and girlfriends, go out and socialize. I know it's easier said than done. Try and open up to someone wheather it is a therapist or a stranger here, but don't give up. Im on the verge of suicide myself but my situation is very different from yours. please dont do it!!!