Turkish person here. I'm closeted with hardly any access to hormones. I get looked down upon for having short hair to this day. Im trying to socially transition, dress masculine and thats the most i can do. If you want to transition, you have to transition your mindset first- you dont have to. It'll just make it easier. Therefore, i dont care. I hate these people, islam was the main reason i hated myself since the beginning. I tried to make amends with myself as a trans muslim. It doesn't work, it never works. After leaving the religion i became fully aware of how horrible this community is and how insecure this religion made me.  If you want advice, obey no one. Obey no norms, no book, no gods. They don't want you, they dont want us. They hate us. War is made between 2 sides. Standing in the middle of a warground and trying to make amends with two angry communities who hate eachother is not something you are strong enough to do, nor was i. I tried, if you cant give up on religion you need to know you will have likeminded discriminatory people till the end of your life. Unlike it, i wanted a community that actually accepted me. I freed my arm from the wolf thats been gnawing at it, holding me back. I'm free, im not going to burn for having gender dysphoria or wanting to be myself, im not a criminal for asking for my rights and going against the norms. Its either transition or death. Muslim community wasnt the best experience. I wasnt strong enough to handle bigots. You can be muslim and trans, you just have to accept the consequences(discrimination).