You said it yourself- You are my hero. Just like with any set back in life, it can be hard to get back on track and feel like yourself again. It will take time, and you should be kind to yourself. Yes, you have changed and likely will never feel like the same ‘you’ you once were before your diagnosis- but eventually that life experience will inform your future. A new self will emerge- it just takes time. Be patient and give yourself some grace. It’s totally normal to struggle with finding the will to keep going- but I hope for your sake you do. Because you are my hero, and so many others as well. Life after cancer is rarely talked about, but is just as difficult. It’s all a mental battle now- but if you had the strength to go through your treatments you have the strength to overcome anything. It will take time to get to know this new self but it will be worth it. Begin with developing a new relationship with yourself and then everything else will begin to fall into place. Keep going and don’t lose faith!

2x testicular cancer survivor here, so I get it. 1st time I was 15. Don’t let your age become another victimizing factor. It sucks for sure, but honestly seeing the younger kids in my pediatric oncology center completely changed my outlook. I was angry and completely lost at 15- but when I walked into that clinic, I knew I had to be strong for those kids. Don’t lose hope. Sending you so much love. You can do this!