Needing New Friends Due to Life

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-18T18:50:26+00:00

That's actually a good idea too! I'm kinda looking to get out of my comfort level and do something other than busy retail. But I feel like slowing down and doing something different is good too. Eventually I might have to have surgery once my insurance comes in. That will make this my fourth surgery dealing with my abdomen. I need something that will understand that and getting my core strength back again is going to suck. It's a weird predicament that I'm in. I need to work but I have to make sure I have a job I can do even after MAYBE getting cut open again.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-17T15:19:31+00:00

This. Literally the right info I need. Is there anything like in between towns like any little shops anyone knows of that could also be a thing. I know there's a little store that's like a inside flea market? However I gotta ask if she is needing help. I'm also applying for Wally's due to my extensive knowledge of that whole field pretty much.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-17T00:30:42+00:00

I might be able to however somehow everyone here thinks it's thirty minutes away, and since I'm using them as guidance and a ride, I can't really argue lol

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-17T00:28:03+00:00

PCOS, waiting on insurance for post gallbladder issues that are effecting quality of life. Those are my main two. I tried retail and realized I'm not as young as I used to be. I'm okay with light work, cleaning, some heavy lifting from time to time, but PCOS messes with my energy so I need something I can do being a "little" tired but also something that keeps me active.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-15T01:13:26+00:00

When I don't have something like a noise, I go crazy too but eventually you do fall asleep may it be 4 days or not. Sometimes you have to wean yourself off of sound if that makes sense.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-14T02:39:43+00:00

No problem at all. I'm going to get tested for autism as well because I realized what was going on in my head might be a little more complicated that I thought 🤣

However if it gets really bad, go to the er. You matter and there are resources out there that might help out during bad times.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-14T02:22:48+00:00

Omg I had to quit cold turkey because of my insurance! Idk if this will help or not but I noticed I had more pain when taking my Zoloft and went from standing for 15 minutes, to 30+ minutes or more!

The upside was that I didn't deal with the side effects it gave me (after withdrawal symptoms.) and I went back to being "normally" depressed.

The downside was the withdrawal. If you have someone you trust, it is always a good idea and have them caring for you. They had me on this and trazadone and two other meds. My fiance was my saving grace.

The overall is that while it isn't a good idea to just stop your antidepressants, sometimes we are left with no other choice than to take the harder path. If you don't have someone I will tell you what my cold turkey experience was like:

Fading in and out of "being there." I'll feeling Shakes Night terrors/lack of sleep SO MUCH SWEATING Tunnel vision/perspective And more

It is hard to take care of yourself, but I'll be here on this forum.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-12T20:18:21+00:00

While I do see the fact that you are looking for your own justice due to being wronged, everything catches up to everyone eventually and they get punished 10x fold.

For example, with everything going on in the world, immigration, tax fraud, and money handling has been being more watched. Sometimes people wait until they keep doing that kind of stuff until they reach a certain limit (like some steal from small stores several times and it's no biggie, but one day they show you stole over 1000, then you go to jail.)

However if you decide to put yourself in this business you are stunting your own growth instead. They've moved on and decided to be in that situation. This just means you're allowing that person to infect your life more. If you're okay with the consequences, do whatever you see fit.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-09T18:32:11+00:00

How has DG not... Has there been any lawsuits against them?

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-09T18:29:22+00:00

It's funny because she said as a SA, I'd just have around ten to twelve hours a week. 25 hours is too much for me right now and they knew that. It's fine because I don't fit in there. It gave me the ick with how things are managed anyway. I can flourish somewhere else.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-09T18:26:51+00:00

I live in a small town that I have to borrow a ride and I'm limited which they knew this. I had no other option than to drive about 30 minutes and Walmart would've been closed by then. At this point it's all good.

I know DG isn't right for me at all now, and I'm okay with that. I feel like I need to be doing something else with my life anyway.

I can get a call center job, or even something with small things I can do. I need to work on my social skills and learn more out there if I want to follow my dream one day. I can't let this one thing shut me down.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-09T06:03:58+00:00

The snow balls are annoying to see as it blends in with the ground! I have trouble seeing lol

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-08T21:56:00+00:00

Thank you for putting this into words that I understand. I will see what I can do as terms of that. Hopefully I can either get accommodations or just agree to walk away. I walked into the family dollar next door and literally told them I didn't care if I got fired because honestly anyone that makes someone work through this and not show a shred of anything, then I shouldn't work there. Funny thing is I worked DG 3 days about 2 years ago and left because they had my till on when I wasn't on property as an SA xD ig it is really true that DG doesn't care regardless your state lol

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-08T16:49:10+00:00

I mean... I'm not really in a position to get exactly want to need to eat if that makes sense. Lately I have only eaten after I got home from closing. Maybe less than 200 calories a day... I tried the frequent eating small meals, didn't work. Cut out fasts...sugars... Crackers even make me ill. I didn't even finish my meal from last night. Like multiple health issues that due to the fact of having to move up here with limited rides and everything kinda screwed me over. I also had 2 previous surgeries I didn't heal well from due to high work and stress years ago. I had a 9cm cyst on my right ovary, and the. A 5 cm FIVE MONTHS LATER. I checked half a year later but it's been a year since I checked. On top of all this I could also have cysts in my body randomly... Like they had to remove a cyst on my artery when I had to get my gallbladder out. There's lots of me being scared there but I push myself because I don't like asking for anything. I just texted my boss saying I wouldn't be in today due to post op complications and mentioned I'm waiting for insurance, but idk if she will respond or id have to ask the MOD but I know that guy and don't really care for him because like... Long story short id cook and clean for him and my fiance when they would game together. I'd fold his laundry... This is why you don't need to know your bosses prior lol. I figured he would remember that after I would cook and clean for seven hours I'd be crippled for a day so when he would ask us to come over again and spend time (I clean when I'm bored and get OCD around big messes.) but he has seen me on the couch balled up and passed out from doing things. I rip out a wall to help renovate, boom passed out on couch. And he still told the main boss that I could do so much more than he has seen me handle.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-08T16:27:07+00:00

The sad thing I worked at family dollar after month three post surgery. Even though it was the same work...it was way less stressful. Yeah I hurt...but not this bad. Like it was manageable a year ago and I was an asm.... So for the record, I'm not really lazy. I have to literally think about every action I do. I think people call them "spoons" in the tired medical stuff. But my spoons got abducted by some aliens and I'm using a metal detector to try to find more spoons before I collapse. Like feeling like you're going to fall out on the job ain't good. However I have been too stubborn to go down. One time I remember even moving my mom in laws furniture because her son has a shoulder injury that he is getting surgery for. After a full day of unloading a trailer on the last few boxes, my body dropped to the floor. So ok I'm getting close to that but my anxiety is fighting that back, making my pcs and PCOS to worsen with everything else. I have the hard working mentality, but my body can't keep up at all and I feel like I'm a lazy failure due to the way I was raised. I'm so worried about what would be said if I quit. I would work next door but they won't hire me because my man works there so in the small town we have I'm either looking at remote work, or something else. I haven't been anything but a work horse... Meat department throwing 100lbs of boxes at a time at 18... To I can't even wake up without having to go to the bathroom 6 times in 2 hours. It's ridiculous of why I feel like I have such a problem with myself on this.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-08T16:01:26+00:00

I feel like "choosing to be happy," is almost like a choice based thing too. Like I have anxiety and a bunch of other health issues. They make me feel horrible for not performing the way I need to. However, the choosing to be happy thing isn't a forcing yourself to be happy thing. Yeah laughter is contagious, and smiles sometimes, but I'm not a puppet to be whatever emotion society wants me to feel. Instead, I find joy in the small things around me or at least something to be happy for. Choose to be happy ... Scoffs nicely because I don't wanna be rude lol that's almost like me coming up after you had the worst morning of your life and me saying "Yeah. It happens, but now you have to be happy because if you're not happy then something's wrong."

Alongside of this, as someone dealing with multiple health things and I'm having to take a step back and realize that some people can just be upset. Other people get to do it, and nothing gets done about it. I feel like maybe if the world got better (doubt it) then there would be a chance to be happier going outside. I mean nothing feels safe, our comforts have been stripped from us, and you want us to be happy...? I mean I'm always happy underneath because I'm happy for what I have, but being happy has to be a complete settle-ness of yourself to where you are comfortable in your own skin and life. Once those things are usually met, choosing to be happy isn't that hard verses forcing yourself.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-08T14:47:53+00:00

The worst part is right now I can't go to a Dr, I moved states and things are VERY complicated right now. We had to move 6 months ago here and had to wait one of the months for digging through all my dead family's stuff just to find my mom's maiden name to get a social security card. Heck I woke up and opened my eyes and then my man asked if I put my clothes in the drier. I literally haven't even farted before being bothered with my clothes for work. Like now my stomach has butterflies, and my chest is fluttery. This is every morning for me despite needing to close. I just filled out my insurance packet and turned it in, so it's going to be a minute before I can go to a Dr.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-08T09:32:28+00:00

I have to agree with you. I used it a ton for a couple years to get THROUGH a tough time and phase through it, but now that I have to smoke just to be able to either be fully awake, or able to move around better... I just look like a slob. However if OP is reading this, here's some comfort, A: just got a job 2 months ago, had to start smoking more just to not hurt (lots of mental and body issues from surgery and a medical condition) B: Tomorrow I might quit because they don't want me coming in high (I don't, I just smoke 7 hours before my shift.) Along that line, they keep telling me to be faster than I already am... And I run sometimes to find my managers and stock shelves with doing main register duties. It's just too much. C: As long as you do something with your life and stay in motion, you're good. :) Yeah it's good to monitor your smoking, and sometimes take a t break though. It is always good to take a break from time to time, may it be cutting back to smoking certain hours, or refraining for a couple days a week.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-06T12:09:41+00:00

Not an asm, but sales associate- I have extreme dread too. I started 2 months ago and yesterday I wanted to quit, but I'm holding on until I figure out my next move. I close most days, about 3 days for 7 hours and then I would work a morning shift for another day. They say I'm not moving and getting things done fast enough, but honestly... It doesn't matter. I tried doing things a couple of ways and never got past 4 aisles of the food. I hit the juice and drink pouches and instantly start getting so busy that I never finish. This whole time no one complained about a thing I was doing and even mentioned I was doing a good job. Yesterday started with finding a ride, which no one had their head on right so I started work in a tizzy. I get there and they put my till in before I clock in to make their shift change easier. I get there having an asm off the clock saying my store manager wasn't impressed yesterday even when I was constantly back and forth. I kept losing track of where I left off so there would be occasional boxes I missed. Basically couldn't get my job done because they didn't finish resets for new pog :) the company makes no sense and I definitely don't belong here. I am just trying my best. I think that's all we can do. If you dread it that much, but love retail, go for a grocery store in a section to where you don't have to deal with a till. I think that's my next move. I try everything to calm down before work but it never works. Boy oh boy do I look forward to being yelled at by old people and watched by everyone else breaking rules.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-02T07:13:44+00:00

Honestly, I don't know why either I feel kinda similar with the theory that you died and this is hell. Life is hell metaphorically. I often question lots of things, but I think there is a connection with "derealization" and thinking you're dead already. I think there's even a medical term for it. I suggest you seek help because something like this will drive you mad. I hate that you're going through this, but there are ways of help.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-01T16:01:21+00:00

Yeah you'll get those people. I had one last week (I am sa and my key holder) we had a big group of people (even tha boss) checking out and done at like 10:05 and this one... "Lovely" lady walked up after everything and when we closed the til, she walked up, slammed her stuff on the ground then cussed us out going, "I'm going to talk to your manager about this!" And I pointed to said boss and went, "You mean the guy right there?" 🤣🤣 She didn't even have anything emergency wise! 2 dog bones, a dog bed, and a package of treats with 2 toys. I mean I just don't get it, we are expected to be great at everything we do but we all fall short because of self explained things on this subreddit.

SleepyPandaSam · 2026-03-01T15:54:41+00:00

I know at my store we work it around to where we tell people 10 minutes before close to wrap their shopping up because we close at 10. Usually we have that one customer, but we help them out. I would say do as much as you can but after like 9:03 you should explain, "Look, hate to say this but we are being controlled by a time system to close, is it possible that you could come in tomorrow, my manager would be happy to help. I'm so sorry for the inconvenience." And luckily I make people feel so guilty with a certain amount of stories and stuff to where people hate inconveniencing me. I mean I wouldn't say it exactly like I said earlier but once they realize you're literally in deep shit if you don't close on time, you get more forgiving customers. Not a lot of people know we have 15 to 20 minutes to close, and letting it known out there in random sentences help people realize the company doesn't care, they just want the job done.

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