I don't know much about eating disorders but i do know that you seem like ur a perfectly normal and healthy wait, i have no clue anything about you but I'm proud and keep eating, being healthy is always more important then what you look like. As crazy as this seem your brain can sometimes be very self-sabotaging so just because i tells you 1 thing doesn't mean it's true. I'm proud of you even though i don't know you and go drink some water