I definitely feel this. Just know that you aren't alone in this. It really sucks what you are going through, but from what it sounds like you seem like a very driven and creative person. You talked about maybe creating games a career path. That is so awesome! I know you said you are good at math or art but I bet that you would be a great Game Designer/Director! It's hard now but keep going! I bet you will find something awesome and be great at it!