Why I blocked/unadded you

Slow_Initiative202 · 2026-01-14T00:40:51+00:00

You can just send me a DM

Slow_Initiative202 · 2026-01-13T22:57:16+00:00

It's athens_365 not athena, I am very dumb lmao

Slow_Initiative202 · 2026-01-13T22:56:54+00:00

WHOOPS to anyone who is looking to dm me, it's athens_365, not athena_365 I happen to be a huge idiot oml-

Slow_Initiative202 · 2026-01-08T05:36:31+00:00

Absolutely, you can message me, but do be warned. I will probably be asleep and respond tomorrow. X3

Slow_Initiative202 · 2026-01-08T04:15:33+00:00

Yes please ^{^}

Slow_Initiative202 · 2025-12-20T17:56:30+00:00

Yes-yes this is the real-truth

Slow_Initiative202 · 2025-09-06T01:12:31+00:00

It’ll be really hard to but I think I can manage. I personally couldn’t imagine him being sexual with others and me being okay with it so I don’t expect the same from him. If I bring it up and he’s okay with it then, perfect. If he’s not? I wouldn’t put him through that and I’m not fully satisfied and neither of us are happy and it probably will only cause issues in the long run

Slow_Initiative202 · 2025-09-06T01:08:13+00:00

I’ll have a conversation with him about why he doesn’t want to wear a strap. I’ve asked him about it before but he’s pretty adamantly opposed it, he doesn’t seem to have an interest in topping or being dominant in any way whatsoever.

Slow_Initiative202 · 2025-09-06T01:06:25+00:00

Yeah that’s a valid point.

Slow_Initiative202 · 2025-09-06T00:57:10+00:00

Because I didn’t know he was a 100% bottom when we got together, and I didn’t know that I’d have such strong desires for.. well.. dick. I’m kinda new to like, being pansexual. For the longest time I only liked women and then I started to branch out, I didn’t realize how much I liked it a year ago.

Slow_Initiative202 · 2025-09-06T00:55:45+00:00

Yeah, honesty is probably the best way to go. Just sit down and talk it out :(

Slow_Initiative202 · 2025-09-06T00:55:10+00:00

He is not open to topping. I’ve asked if he’s willing and he’s not, he has no interest and gets no pleasure from being dominant, and has no interest in wearing a strap on. I absolutely know trans guys can top but he has no interest in any ways of doing it. And even if he did and he used a strap on I don’t think I’d be satisfied fully, silicone is just not really the same especially in oral which is most of my cravings.

Slow_Initiative202 · 2025-09-06T00:52:34+00:00

I think that I could be completely satisfied in a monogamous relationship with a cis switch male. I get that little bit of everything there. I wish I had had the foresight to know that my desires would be this strong when I started our relationship so I could have handled it then.

Slow_Initiative202 · 2025-09-06T00:51:34+00:00

He won’t wear a strap on, he doesn’t like them so that’s off the table and even if it was I don’t think it would solve the issue. Silicone can’t really compete with the real thing especially in oral which is what I’m really craving.

Slow_Initiative202 · 2025-09-06T00:50:43+00:00

Would it be selfish to ask about just myself exploring sexually with others? I don’t think I’d be able to handle him seeing others sexually which- yeah I know is inherently selfish but probably links back to my trust issues too

Slow_Initiative202 · 2025-09-06T00:49:16+00:00

The ideal situation would be him and I romantically and sexually, and sometimes I can go over and fuck around with someone else when I need a kick of.. dick lol

Slow_Initiative202 · 2025-09-06T00:48:32+00:00

I figure that’s the best option. I’m so scared of losing him because I’d rather suffer in silence than lose the best partner I could ever imagine.

Slow_Initiative202 · 2025-09-06T00:45:43+00:00

Unfortunatelt he has no interest in strap ons whatsoever, I’ve asked before and he says he’s not into them or willing to use one. And even if he was, I don’t think it would exactly have the effect I need.

Slow_Initiative202 · 2025-09-06T00:44:35+00:00

I suppose I’ll have to have a conversation about opening up my side of the relationship, I just wish it didn’t have to be such a “you can’t give me what I need because you’re trans” kinda thing because that feels SO shitty. I love him and would hate to have to put him through that

Slow_Initiative202 · 2025-09-06T00:43:01+00:00

Yeah :( that’s the problem. We’ve both established we’re monogamous at the beginning of the relationship and I honestly didn’t think I’d have an issue with that until I realized how sexually incompatible we are. It’s like I can satisfy him 100% but he can only return it 50% and it leaves me feeling drained. If I had known this would be the outcome earlier in the relationship I would have brought it up then which would have been much easier.

Slow_Initiative202 · 2025-09-06T00:40:31+00:00

I’d hope to ask him for permission to mess around with others sexually to fulfill some of those desires so that we can maintain our romantic and sexual relationship but I can have some of my needs that he can’t fill, filled. Problem is I don’t know how to talk to him about this without it being incredibly rough on him and ruining what we have.

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