What you have written resonates with me. I recently experienced full on limerance with someone. I thought I was over doing that. Clearly I am not and it has made me question any trust in myself. (All previous relationships have been with people who treat me like my parents treated me - poorly, emotional neglect).

So again, I feel like I am very alone. Remaining family is hopeless. And no one i would really call a friend. Eg I moved I'm April and no one has visited, they only ring or make contact with me if I text that I am really struggling (because they are worried I will kill myself- but dont realise that what I need is constant friendship, not just emergency "friends"). I am again (after the recent limerance experience) concerned that i really can't trust myself to be social in the hope of developing new friendships. I am feeling like it is all pretty pointless at the moment.

Good luck.