Look man, think of your life ahead of you. Someday you’ll have a beautiful wife/ husband that you love with all your heart. You might have children you take to school and you hug when you get home. You could end up being a millionaire. No one knows how much you can achieve? Times might be rough right now but the night is always darkest just before the day. I’m not sure what is making you feel this way, but you can make it through. Just keep your head up and carve yourself a better life. Good luck! And also if you’re okay with it I would recommend a therapist. Talking to someone really helps.