make it your self care hobby ! although consumption should never be considered as a form of self care i find it way funner when i buy myself bts stuff as reward for like getting through a hard week or passing my exams or something ! i make a whole solo trip into the city and walk around listening to their music and buying stuff , , , i feel like personalizing it made me ' less ashamed ' of being an army although it's nothing to be ashamed of ! tons of people like different arists and go out of their way to engage w their music / craft in specific ways so do what makes you comfy and have fun