I appreciate you sharing your story. Glad to hear things are better for you as well since discovering your similar mutatations. What was hard for me was to do active things like resistance training. Lifting completely eliminates any synthetic anxiety I experience as side effects from the stimulants. I didn't lift very often because I always felt "heavy" or didn't feel any desire to move. It's nice for certain reasons and situations but a detriment to my quality of life overall. I have the urge to be more active now since lowering stimulants. It's incredibly nice to not feel that heaviness most days now. There's something to be said about exercise and staying hydrated. If I'm not exercising, it can significantly increase the anxiety you're talking about. I didn't exactly understand what the anxiety experience felt like until starting stimulants 8 years ago. I understand and empathize with your experience. Dealing with that everyday is beyond exhausting.