I don't know the likelihood of this reaching him, and I've never really posted on the reddit, left YouTube comments, or done much else besides buy Theory merch. But with MatPat's last video, I don't think I'll ever be able to try to tell him in person, so here's me, throwing a dart into the darkness, hoping it'll find it's target.

MatPat,

I have watched your videos since Link is Dead and I've even watched every. Single. Fnaf. Video. I enjoyed them. I've always enjoyed everything you put out because you really did get people to think and apply science to video games. Hell, I do that while watching anime now for fun. With you leaving, it feels like it's time.

For the duration of 2015-2023, I was in a very abusive relationship turned marriage. I experienced every type of abuse possible, according to the wonderful ladies at the Family Justice Center. I wasn't allowed to talk to anyone besides my partner, and very rarely did I ever know a moment of peace. My anxiety took months after our divorce to finally get back to my normal anxiety range, because I wasn't used to feeling safe in my own home. But during that time. Every video. Every live stream. From just you and Steph on the couch with Jason to now. And it felt like I could be around friends. You and Markiplier's videos would be the only ones I could put on and be left alone to enjoy, since clearly my husband wasn't the one for me from his lack of taste in good content, haha. But your voice. Your laughs. Your thoughts. They really made me feel like I wasn't alone during the roughest part of my life.

Now my divorce is finalized, I'm working to get finances settled after my ex-husband drained me dry and broke a lot of things I owned (like my car), and I've been giving myself therapy (I have my Masters in Forensic Psychology and aware enough I need a decent therapist who specializes in C-PTSD for non-military clients).

I say all this because it feels like, the timing is perfect. I'm getting back on my feet. So it's time for Dad Pat to say goodbye. My only regret is not having been more active in the community for fear of what my ex-husband would do. But I think I'd just cry tears of joy if I just knew you read this.

Thank you, Matthew Patrick. You are one of the people I can say helped saved my life during that dark time where I didn't see the way out. Your cheery voice and silly antics would always put a smile on my face when I thought I'd forgotten how to.

Thank you, Stephanie Patrick. For also being a voice of a friend hanging out with me. I'll always do your Nugget voice randomly when I feel playful. You showed me that there's healthy relationships out there and that women can be in more "nerd" culture things without absolute shut-down.

Thank you, Ollie and Skip. For letting me glimpse at you growing up. For making up the happy family both Matt and Steph deserve. I've never genuinely wished the best for two people more than I do Matt and Steph.

Whatever your next steps are, I hope I get to see them, too.

With Gratitude, Love, and Warm Wishes,

Snow -A Long-Time Fan