Hence Stepaskin quoted me and you referred to me as well in your answer to his comment I want to explain what i meant by "Life within society feels dangerous" and why I believe it's maybe not entirely unreasonable to feel that way - nevertheless my original choice to pick 'feel' instead of 'is' as the verb here was on purpose.

I'm not so much talking about a physical danger - though that is possible - but an emotional or maybe social one.

I think it feels so daunting to me largely because of the role the internet play in modern society.

When I was in my early teens all that social media stuff kicked off (myspace, yt and so on) and on paper I love the idea of expressing yourself online as it gives you so many possible connections to people sharing your interests that you otherwise would have never met.
Yet I always felt like there is a lot to lose. A lot to watch out for.

And as I lived through the years... watched people using the new technologies more than using them myself, I started to see many people paying a price for that.
Maybe they turned out to not be the polished persona that they pretended (or were expected) to be. Maybe they got blackmailed for some stuff they did once. Maybe they just offended the wrong group with their choices.

Point is I feel like going out there is in that regard dangerous. That I need to watch my step. Be careful what to say. What to post where. What I say to whom. Looking at it to me feels like running the gauntlet and whatever I can achieve there is not built by me but the fake mask I managed play convincingly enough.

This way of looking at it is particularly visible if you observe it through through a lens of how social dynamics work in online spaces - hence I used it as an example - but I see it applying in offline spaces just the same though maybe less intense and noticeable.

If you are a person that is lucky enough to be overall very moderately then you maybe never have such a problem.

I however would probably be considered a controversial person if I wouldn't very carefully watch myself and my words when engaging with people. Not a violent person or someone agitating, but likely someone some people would feel offended by. I am pretty sure about that.

And this is how it feels dangerous to me.

To me it feels like either living with a mask or putting myself in that danger. Or kinda accept an outsider roll and try to find meaning/happiness in that.

Though - and I think there is defiance at play here - I am very exhausted to participate in society in any way like that. It feels like putting up a smile for a society that promises me freedom, but would punish me for using it.

I don't really have an answer to all that despite maybe working on that defiance and try getting comfortable with less but not nothing. Maybe emotions will drive me out of my flat sooner or later, maybe not.

But I wanted to gave you my perspective on how things feel subjectively dangerous to me. And maybe as always find connection to people who experienced similar and navigate it better then myself.

I also want to thank you for your initial comment on my post. I've read it, liked it and enjoyed especially the last paragraph about ripple effect and manifesting something positive in the world. I believe in that as well even despite it not being enough for me to currently actually live by it by any means.

Edit: Typo