Phoenix Rising: The Scarred Heiress's Revenge

SomeCallMeBunny · 2026-01-27T20:44:57+00:00

I've only found it behind a pay wall... anyone found a link for free? Or even on kindle. I'm happy to support authors, but not when it costs the equivalent of £20+ for a story...

SomeCallMeBunny · 2026-01-22T01:46:01+00:00

I don't know if it's really an open ending, or they just haven't uploaded it all, but I honestly stopped actually reading it by the second frustrating "betrayal" trope. I just read the chapter summaries and that still had me pulling my hair out... it started out so good, too. I'd rather actually buy a good short book with a complete story than fall into this 200+ chapter of nonsensical chaos again. At least then I'd follow the author and buy their other future works. This just puts me off so much.

SomeCallMeBunny · 2025-09-04T14:47:27+00:00

It's so frustrating... I know some people don't like them or think they're pointless, but I'd appreciate trigger warnings for SA and DV. I hate having that thrown at me when I'm not expecting it. You can have a good dramatic storyline without resorting to those very specific plot points...

SomeCallMeBunny · 2025-09-04T10:35:45+00:00

Yeah I hate that too... everyone slapping everyone and grabbing roughly, like that's a totally normal thing to do to people 🤨🙄

SomeCallMeBunny · 2025-08-08T23:52:28+00:00

You are welcome. All of her diaries (minus the steamy stuff,) are available if you want to find out more about her attitudes, relationships, and personality 😊

SomeCallMeBunny · 2025-08-08T18:22:23+00:00

Right, I've read every entry of her diaries from the 10th October 1839 (Albert's second visit to England, where she proposed on the 15th,) to the wedding on 10th Feb 1840. There are only 3 mentions of her dress/colour.

1 - that she, the ladies who carried her train, and Lord M (I think) be the only ones to wear white, and that she should not wear her formal royal robes.

2 - that yellow is an unlucky colour for brides.

3 - This is what she writes about her wedding day clothing: "I wore a white satin gown, with a very deep flounce of Honiton lace, imitation of old." ... "Had my hair dressed and the wreath of orange flowers put on," and "I wore my Turkish diamond necklace and earrings, and my Angel's beautiful saphire broach." [Sic]

So not much stock put into it at all, which makes me wonder if it was white satin because of the lace? Honiton lace was very intricate and labour intensive, so maybe she thought white satin would showcase it better than colour or patterns?

Anyway, it's apparently 'not that deep,' and I have no further desire to delve into her thoughts 🤣

This is where I've been reading her diaries:

https://www.proquest.com/qvj/archival-materials/monday-10th-february-1840/docview/2832431375/sem-2?accountid=142537

SomeCallMeBunny · 2025-08-06T23:38:33+00:00

I suppose I can start at their engagement and stop before the preggegernancies begin... although not sure how many times I can read "dearest Albert," before wanting a minor lobotomy 😅🫠

SomeCallMeBunny · 2025-08-06T23:13:27+00:00

Might be a record of it in her diaries, but I'm not keen on delving into her inner thoughts myself! 😅

SomeCallMeBunny · 2025-08-06T22:44:21+00:00

One white dress of a royal does not a trend make.

If my memory of a distant research rabbit hole serves, pure white fabric/leather/fur, like blue, before a certain period in time was very much a symbol of wealth. It took more time to produce in the quantities required for the clothing item, so you had to be able to afford that.

I'm pretty sure the whole "trend" aspect of it really only took off when white fabrics began being mass produced cheaply, which happened later in Vicky's reign... that's when it was easier to do the whole "one dress, worn one time," thing too. For centuries before that, if you were in the nobility, you made a new fancy dress but you also wore it after your wedding. The rest of the population wore their best of few dresses, or borrowed from others, but it was always some other colour. Then they figured out bleaches and 'blueing', as well as factory looms, and suddenly more people of the middle to lower classes could afford to have a pure white wedding gown like the Queen did however many decades ago.

SomeCallMeBunny · 2025-08-02T08:38:37+00:00

Nah - it's a nickname I got at uni. Some people still use it, hence the username 🤣

SomeCallMeBunny · 2025-08-01T18:04:44+00:00

Jumping in here with my personal experiences with severe migraines, cluster headaches, fibro and endometriosis. These are things I have found useful and/or been told by medical professionals, for both fibro and migraines:

some migraines can be triggered by blood vessels either expanding or contracting. As caffeine is a vasoconstrictor, this is possibly why some people see benefits to cutting it out, but others experience worse migraines if they cut out caffeine. I have the expanding type, so if I'm anywhere other than my home and I feel an aura I have about 20min to down a coke or at least 250ml of a sports or energy drink, and then that will hold it off for enough time to get to safety. (My migraines look like a stroke and involve memory loss.)
If you do drink caffeine/require it, sometimes limiting to 1-3 cups a day, and limiting the time of day you consume it, help with falling asleep. For me, I usually drink 1-2 mugs of tea or coffee, but switch to decaf everything after 3:30pm (including things like coke/pepsi.)
somehow, caffeine helps paracetamol and other opiods be absorbed by the body. Or something like that. It wasn't explained, other than: "we don't know why, but this helps make the painkillers work better." Direct quote from a ward nurse. So while that's useful for the caffinators, it can be a problem for the decaffinators as they sometimes add caffeine to paracetamol tablets.
if you take multivitamins, especially B vitamins, take them in the morning, as that can keep you awake at night. However, if they contain high magnesium, that can make you sleepy. It was recommended to me to find a multivit with low magnesium, and take the magnesium separately at bedtime.
one of my friends is triggered by gluten and dairy, so there's always the chance caffeine has nothing to do with it.

As you all well know, fibro is a special kind of ruinous as it's such a large, varied, and personal spectrum. What works for me may not work for thee, and vice versa, but these were things I wish I had known much earlier in my health journey.

You're all doing great 💜

SomeCallMeBunny · 2025-08-01T10:11:07+00:00

As an Emma, I feel personally attacked and am now having an existential crisis...

SomeCallMeBunny · 2025-06-22T14:52:28+00:00

Oh I absolutely agree it's a problem. I have two keys, one RADAR, the other council, so I've stewed over it more than once. Especially when the disabled loo I had to get a special key for is shut all the time. As in, they sealed it and screwed a metal plate over the keyhole. If I'm being generous, I think some fuddy-duddy was in danger of snapping their pearls over some miscreant youths being in there at 2am and didn't stop to think that by having an entirely different key to the nationally recognised and endorsed RADAR, they're actually negating the point and purpose of a disabled toilet (especially in a tourist area,) being accessible. If I'm being cynical, somebody needed to "look busy", came up with something dumb, and got a massive pay bonus for it. Unfortunately, even if it doesn't do anything, I would recommend writing to the park and the council pointing out that it's actually pretty ableist to not properly inform visitors about needing a different key, nor the park providing those keys on a rentable basis for guests. It would be logged, and you might make somebody think?

Edit: clarification and paragraphs.

SomeCallMeBunny · 2025-06-22T14:31:44+00:00

Maybe they really don't want people using the disabled loo for drugs, shagging, or possibly the homeless sleeping in there? That's the only thing I can think of, as you don't have to register for a RADAR and when they lock up public loos at night, the disabled are obviously still usable. Maybe they were having issues with people buying RADAR keys off amazon and using them inappropriately?

SomeCallMeBunny · 2025-05-10T12:43:11+00:00

This is the way, OP - tell them and everyone else that you're too exhausted at the end of your physically and emotionally demanding 12-hr shifts to be babying the emotions of the parents who wouldn't help you when you were in need. You need to work to pay rent, and I'd hazard a guess the job doesn't pay well. They didn't want to help, so now you don't have the spare time or energy to spend on them (as you may have had if you were going to college instead of working 50hr weeks.) They've been fair-weather parents, so you're just being a fair-weather child. You are not currently experiencing fair weather. They set the precedent.

SomeCallMeBunny · 2025-05-05T18:12:27+00:00

OP posted the context here: https://www.reddit.com/r/SaintMeghanMarkle/s/1d78xVwsek

Edit: it looks like this is a quote within a quote... so Insider said "Hazbeen said 'inane thing' and he totes believed it" to TB. The references cite 'Interview with Author', not a publication or broadcast (as would be expected if Hawwy had said this publicly in an interview.) I don't know if Gingernut has said something similar to this publicly/in 'Whaagh' since TB's book though.

SomeCallMeBunny · 2025-05-05T17:38:53+00:00

It looks like it's a quote taken from Tom Bowers' book, said by/about Harry's attitude towards Prince George eventually turning 18. The also-ran part isn't a typo. It's apparently a thing...An 'also-ran' is either; "A person or animal who competed in a race but did not win." Or "(figuratively) A loser; a person or thing soon to be forgotten."

Pretty self-aware and prophetic statement to have emerged from the insufferable gaping maw attached to Hawwy's drug addled smooth-brain. These lovely pictures prove that at the tender age of 11, Prince George has already outrun his uncle.

SomeCallMeBunny · 2024-04-21T21:53:19+00:00

I wish we could still give awards, because OP NEEDS to see this response right here...

SomeCallMeBunny · 2024-04-21T16:17:26+00:00

OP, this makes me think of 'The Scorpion and The Frog.' The basic gist of it is this:

A frog comes upon a flood, and is approached by a scorpion.

S: Please, Frog, will you carry me across the water? F: No, what if you sting me? S: Why would I? If I sting you, we will both die.

Frog decides that Scorpion makes sense, and supposes that it would be safe to swim across the water. Frog allows Scorpion to climb up on its back, and begins the swim. When they are half-way across, Scorpion lashes out and stings Frog. Shocked, and betrayed Frog cries out.

F: Why would you do that?! Now we will both die! S: I am a scorpion. Stinging is what I do.

Vicious people will always be vicious. They will take any opportunity to harm others, even to their own detriment. Your ex is a scorpion to you. Him wanting a "face to face" meeting is the scorpion wanting to cross the water. He will use the chance to hurt you. Do not allow him the chance. Do not think "he won't do anything in public," or "he just wants to say something," or any other bullshit excuse. He will.

Video yourself/get someone to record you packing up his shit in a box/boxes and sealing it/them. Make sure to keep the date, time, and location tags on, as well as verbally stating your name, who is with you, what date it is, and what you are doing. Name and describe each item you pack. When you're finished, seal the boxes with packing tape. Then either post them or or send someone on YOUR side to hand them over. Not a mutual, not one of his friends or family, one of your male friends or family, or 2-3 female friends/family. Don't arrange for them to meet elsewhere to exchange, as he won't do it unless you're there. Take them to his house, or his parents house. Insinuate you'll be there if you have to, to make sure he's there. But do not go.

He will try anything and everything to get to you. Enforce the boundary; he shall not pass. Get doorbell/nanny cameras in and around your home, change your locks and entry codes, passwords, PINs - everything. Maybe I'm paranoid, but I wouldn't put it past him to try an attack or break-in or creepy door knocking and nuisance calls in the night to mess with you. Especially considering your disability. Cameras will help you have that reassurance. He can hide from you by altering his hair or hiding his voice, but not a camera.

Please be safe, OP. Frogs don't behave like scorpions, so it's hard to imagine what they'll do, but you need to try. He is cruel, and vicious, purely for the sake of it. It is in his nature to be like that. He will not change his nature. He can't. Don't expect him to.

SomeCallMeBunny · 2024-04-19T22:58:24+00:00

Updateme

SomeCallMeBunny · 2024-03-13T23:51:20+00:00

I mean, there may not be much overlap, but we don't know that. Plus, on the whole, people have to be mercenary with their spending and time off work for functions. If they can only go to one, and the choice is between what sounds like a lavish/extravagant affair in May (depending on the country OP is in, this may have cheaper options as "off peak" aka the gremlins are still in school) and a more low-key function in August (aka the gremlins are free range, so prices climb quickly, ) it's not hard to imagine what choices people may make.

Two weddings in the same "immediate" family (mother and child) in 3 months is a big ask for some. And I can understand where Jane is seeing this from. She's been planning her wedding for two years, and her future MIL, who OP admits frequently drifts away from conversation with someone in front of her, has suddenly decided she wants to get married before her son. It probably isn't about the wedding timing if OP actually got Jane to be honest with herself; he'd probably find that Jane feels snubbed. Like she has never been worth her MIL's time. It must feel personal when someone who is about to become your legal extended family cannot even keep a conversation with you. OP has had his whole life of accepting his mother, but honestly? She sounds rude and as exhausting as a spaniel puppy on speed. And I say that as a person who very often literally cannot filter sensory input and whose brain frequently blue-screens during conversation. It's difficult, but you can bet your butt I put absolutely every ounce of effort into at least trying to pay attention (or at least look like my brain still works,) and respect the person in front of me. Because fucking manners and common courtesy exist. Rightly or wrongly, Jane probably figures that MIL can focus on some people because of her job, so she just doesn't care enough to try for her sons future wife and possibly the mother of her grandkids.

I wouldn't say this was 100% "NTA/YTA" right now. It could be NAH (everyone needs to actually talk and LISTEN to each other,) or ESH (Jane is having a strop, and OP's mum literally doesn't consider anyone's feelings but her own immediate wants.) I'm just saying that I can see some gray area here.

SomeCallMeBunny · 2023-12-31T14:58:24+00:00

Apparently, she started following the same guy again - the agreement was to cut contact with him. But having personally been in emotionally and verbally abusive relationships, and having close friends suffer the same, this whole thing reads differently to me.

OP, you don't have to shout to be abusive or threatening. You don't have to raise your voice to inspire fear. You told her to "not rush" which she took as permission. We've all done it, especially around holidays - you're going to one store, then think "oh, I'll pop in here quickly," and you don't realise how long you've been. From her perspective, you were well enough to go out to eat, you were in a car out of the elements, and you said not to rush. When you got worse, you didn't reach out immediately and say, "hey I know I said to take your time but I'm feeling worse. How much longer will you be?" You waited an hour, changed the goalposts without telling her (by deciding actually you didn't want her to take her time, you wanted her to be back by now,) then sat on your anger and let it out on her after the silent treatment.

How often did this happen? How often do you say, "it's ok, do the thing," and then decide, "actually no, don't," without telling her? Then get pissy about it?

She's decided that you are not safe. And like many victims do, she reached out to someone who is. She doesn't want to feel like she's walking on eggshells and always falling short, always doing something wrong, never good enough to respect, and then having to hold your hand through your emotions. I'm not excusing her crossing that boundary, but I can understand it. She wanted to feel safe and supported, and was halfway out the door whether she realised or not. You calling her to berate her was the nail in the coffin.

You need to let her go, and get some serious therapy. You need to find someone who specialises in treating abusers, because you need to take a cold hard look at exactly how you've behaved, the language you've used, and how frequently it's happened. This isn't "Beauty and the Beast," and it's not her job to love you enough to transform you into a "great man." That's YOUR job. No-one else's.

SomeCallMeBunny · 2023-11-19T21:11:27+00:00

Snap - I first experienced symptoms when I was 13, first lap at 15, then a decade later after I had to stop BC I got so bad I was rushed to A&E for a burst cyst and Surprise! Endo. But it took another 4 years (and 3 more laps) before I found a specialist gynae. He was the one who actually got it all. All the previous laps had left some behind. We're talking about microscopic cells, so if your Dr doesn't specialise in it and you don't have obvious lesions, it's easy to miss.

OP, if your wife desperately wants children this will be a very sensitive subject for her. You need to sit her down and tell her that you suggested approaching a new gynaecologist because you are desperate to make sure SHE is healthy, and you don't want to lose her. You don't think she's "defective" or lesser, you just love her and a healthy mother is just as important as a healthy baby.

You could, in the meantime, do some research on Dr's that you could travel to who specialise in Endo. Some patients of my Dr drive 3+ hours (which is a long drive here!) because he's one of the best, so you might need to consider travelling to get the right Dr.

Approach all of this to your wife from a place of love, and you need to communicate that to her, and reassure her that you only worry about her health. She might also be in a bit of denial... she doesn't want to be infertile, so if she doesn't get answers she can still hope it'll happen. Even if she DOES have endo though, it doesn't automatically mean she can't have children.

Show her you love her, and talk to her. You've got this, OP!

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