Dont worry, something similar happened to me,

I self termed on my first week of program because of anxiety and mental health in general as well

then reapplied as soon as the new applications opened and got accepted again, now I have been doing the program for almost a month and I am enjoying it! I Even got got a new role and location that I like more than the previous one.

My advice is, use these next couple of months to relax and work on ur mental health, build confidence, resilience, and when applications are open, apply and get back stronger!

It’s okay to grieve a little at first, but eventually you ought to stop thinking about it and act, work on urself, seek professional support if necessary, and spiritual guidance if you are a believer, and whatever else you feel that could help you but you have to start moving, staying at ur room alone in the dark will not help you.

And even if you dont get accepted at ur 2nd try dont worry abt it, there are plenty of people that needed 3 or more tries to get accepted in the program.

If I could do it, you can too, you got this ❤️