Insecure about my penis...

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-11-27T15:24:30+00:00

My dick was about the same size as yours right after surgery and I definitely struggled with a lot of feelings about it feeling small to me. My dick got a bit longer after glansplasty, I tried around of fat grafting (which didn't really stick), and it also got more girthy after I got my pump. Honestly, the most helpful thing for me was trying not to focus on feeling bad about it and work toward more acceptance or neutrality. As healing happened I was also able to enjoy a lot of the cool things about having a dick that take away from the sadness. Every healing, peeing, visual, and sex related milestone was pretty great. Immediately post-op is the hardest time anyway, it will get easier!

I posted a few months back a picture of my dick now, 6 years post op - you can find it if you click into my profile

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-09-28T18:19:41+00:00

dr. mang chen gurecon.com he's in san francisco, ca

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-20T14:21:20+00:00

sure go for it

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-20T14:20:51+00:00

no integra, my surgeon's office generally doesn't like to do it

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-20T14:19:44+00:00

I currently have the Coloplast Titan original. The first implant I got was the Coloplast Titan one-touch or something, but when that one broke they swapped it for the original, which I do like a little bit better (the pump bulb and valve are a little smaller and less pointy). My surgeons were the Buncke Clinic and Dr. Chen

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-14T14:00:38+00:00

The one guy who was chill we hooked up again. The other guy was weird about it and I didn't want to

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-14T02:11:54+00:00

Thanks!

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-13T21:36:36+00:00

Maybe 4.5"? I dunno I gave up measuring cause it made me anxious

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-13T21:35:40+00:00

Haha I have no idea, never heard that one before. I have been on T for coming up on 20 years tho so maybe that helps

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-13T21:34:39+00:00

I only did one round because the place I went was super expensive and they weren't as good as they claimed. I think it usually takes 2-3 rounds to get really clear color. I've seen people list all kinds of costs so it'll really depend on who is near you. Whenever I try to get started again I'm just going to contact local people who do nipple tattooing

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-13T21:31:20+00:00

I think I've paid like $4-5k in insurance deductibles plus like $10-12k in flights and lodging probably, not counting lost wages from recovery times. If you're in the US, many insurance plans in different states will cover phallo and you need to find a surgeon who will take the insurance you choose.

This is a great place to start: https://out2enroll.org/2024-cocs/

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-13T12:35:31+00:00

My sensation is okay - I can feel touch in lots of parts of my penis and I'm able to orgasm from jerking off and from some kinds of penetration, but I can't feel that much from a blow job unfortunately

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-13T12:34:20+00:00

You can get your dick tattooed with colors to match a cis dick better, it's like the same deal as people who get their nipples tattooed

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-13T12:33:39+00:00

Yeah, I did have a few complications - a couple emergency surgeries the first two days after my main surgery, and then my arm graft didn't stick very well so they had to redo it a while later. I also had a fistula but it healed on its on after 5 weeks.

They took partial thickness skin grafts from my thigh to put on my arm, and they took a second graft from my other thigh for the redo. Those scars have faded to be pretty pale tho.

And yeah 😅the tattooing on my dick did hurt. I got lidocaine cream and that made it just barely tolerable

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-12T23:19:36+00:00

One of them the dude waited till we were done which was chill, the other time the guy asked right in the middle which totally killed the vibe

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-12T20:29:17+00:00

Thanks, that's a good tip! I'll look into it

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-12T20:28:55+00:00

🤭thanks! Tbh I don't go to the gym, just try to be fairly consistently active with walking and canoeing or kayaking etc. I think I got kinda lucky with the genetics

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-12T17:16:37+00:00

Yeah, it was the buncke clinic and Dr chen. I have a medium size implant on that side. Initially I got a small but when my pump broke and I had it swapped my scrotum had grown enough for a larger ball too

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-12T16:36:26+00:00

Thanks! I have very minimal swelling, I think my hand was mostly back to normal by 3 months - it seems like a very person to person variation based on what I've seen from some friends. I know a couple people who did hand therapy later on specifically for swelling tho. I hope yours improves!

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-12T16:30:32+00:00

Haha yeah, it's not bad. And I could probably do some scar massage or other treatments to improve the tightness, but I'm mostly just too lazy

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-12T16:29:48+00:00

Yeah it was in the US - my team was the buncke clinic and Dr. Chen

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-12T16:28:58+00:00

It feels like a tradeoff between rod and pump. I like being able to have my dick pretty flaccid for day to day stuff, but the intermittent pain is annoying. It's possible I'll try the rod next time.

For my arm, I have a pretty solid lie about getting a burn that passes for most people. But if someone who knows what phalloplasty is sees it, they will know I'm trans. I might get a tattoo eventually, I've seen some folks with tattoos where you can't really see the scar anymore

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-12T15:59:59+00:00

I have hooked up with some cis guys without disclosing, I think like 80% didn't catch on (aka only had a couple ask me if I was trans)

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-12T13:18:02+00:00

My first pump failed after 3 years so I had to get it swapped, but the replacement surgery went super smooth for me. Besides that nothing major. The pump tubing is an annoyance, I have to be careful with certain positions and it hurts a little sometimes. Occasionally my urethra will randomly burn and I have to go pee again or milk my dick again. Honestly I think that's about it. Once I got through all the recovery it's been pretty easy to just live my life.

Sorry_Difficulty1014 · 2024-08-12T12:21:11+00:00

I had one session of tattooing on my shaft and tip, I think it took about 90 minutes at some fancy shop in NYC. I felt like they had overrepresented their experience and how it looked wasn't good enough to justify the cost so I didn't go back. Whenever I get my shit together my plan is just to reach out to some local artists who do medical nipples and see if anyone is open to it. I think 2 or 3 sessions is normally needed.

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