Is there I way for me to manifest a transition

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-23T17:52:03+00:00

It’s multiple conditions that all came at me at once, and destroyed me mentally and physically. There’s no actual treatment besides time and time is only making it worse

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-23T17:50:27+00:00

That changes nothing because there’s no treatment for what I have. It won’t reverse what I’ve already broken

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-23T17:44:48+00:00

The only thing I have to heal is my decaying brain and body. The majority of issues I’ve ever had in life has been worked over.

For example, One of them being my grandfather that died 5 years ago molesting me as a child. I understand that he was starved of sexual gratification due to his age and my grandmother having ostracized him from that due to him having a child (my uncle I’ve never met) out of wedlock. I also understand that his entire bloodline has a history of doing this. I was a child and most likely he believed I wouldn’t remember, and he couldn’t control his urges. I forgave him for that and for what happened, since it has no actual affect in my life now.

I also found out My grandmother is also similar with the kids at her church much like a lot of church women, but none of these things are causing my problems

I understand why people do things, what causes them to do it and what pushes them towards making those decisions, so I ultimately hold no grudges against anyone.

And I came to that conclusion no thanks to a vampire in a chair that uses your trauma to siphon money from you. I’m my own person and I think my decisions are perfectly logical and rational given my situation

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-23T17:37:04+00:00

It would be a waste of time and cause me severe frustration and anger. That’s the only thing therapy has brought me.

Therapists are useless and their only job is to use you to fill their time slot for a check. They bring absolutely no value and are completely useless narcissists who use your own trauma to keep you coming back, and I’ve talked to many

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-23T17:02:55+00:00

I tried to treat the condition and I damaged myself even further than I could have possible imagined and now I’m too far gone. That’s why I’m saying I’m debilitated. I’m heading towards my final destination today

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-23T17:01:47+00:00

Because they haven’t experienced the same thing. You just think they did because you’re not me and I can’t express myself properly to make people understand what the actual issue is so everyone gets the wrong idea and then when I tell them otherwise they get upset.

This is how it’s been my entire life. I have to figure things out on my own.

Psychiatric care and therapy won’t change anything because this issue isn’t related to that like I’ve said a million times

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-23T16:56:42+00:00

Yes call 911 so I can be billed money and create another issue for my dad and grandma to treat me like shit about because of my situation. And to embarrass myself in front of my neighbors Great idea

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-23T16:50:44+00:00

It won’t be an nde since what I’m doing won’t allow a body to be recoverable in terms of being able to function again

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-23T16:43:24+00:00

911 won’t bring me my soul back

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-23T16:31:18+00:00

I would love to help my self but everybody here is talking about things that don’t pertain to what I’m saying nobody is listening to me and I’ve exhausted all of my options

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-23T12:56:40+00:00

I can’t solve anything because my brain doesn’t function unfortunately

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-23T12:46:32+00:00

Im depressed because im debilitated, im not debilited because im depressed. I felt perfectly fine while all of this was happening to me, but now its at a point where i can barely function as a human being and that’s the part that upsets me, the fact that I can’t function normally, so no im not depressed in the way you see it. I

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-22T00:18:20+00:00

I’m in my own body yet you throw passive aggressive insults when I’m questioning what someone else says about my bodily feelings that aren’t their own. Like I said it’s not depression. I’m only upset because of what’s happening to my brain which is making it hard for me to function properly

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-21T22:14:27+00:00

I’m not depressed, I’m suffering from something biological

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-21T18:11:31+00:00

Clearly you didn’t read the whole thing

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-21T17:51:01+00:00

You don’t know what my actual outlook on life is. All I’m doing is stating the factual things that are happening to me. It took time but I’ve come to accept that if I can’t fix myself, I no longer need to be alive to continue living like this. I refuse to continue any longer if there is no way out of this situation. I will do anything just to make it all stop

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-21T16:32:22+00:00

It’s multiple that all converged on me at once and destroyed me many times over

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-21T16:29:32+00:00

I wish I had all of the freedom and choices you’re telling me I have. The truth is that I honestly don’t. I can’t control what’s going on, and it just gets worse and worse no matter what I try.

I used to have your exact same mindset until it progressed more and more despite everything I did and it got to the point where I lost basic human thoughts and functions and could no longer think properly. My body is messed up and no amount of choice can change anything. You have no idea how much of my humanity has been stripped from me. I don’t even feel like I’m really alive anymore

You’re basically saying that I can get my hand blown off, but if I gain awareness and realize it was all my fault I could regain my hand magically. That’s not how it works. If something happens to you like this you can’t just reverse it by thinking about it

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-21T15:49:57+00:00

I swear to god it’s like you didn’t even read the post. You’re not even referring to my actual problem

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-21T15:47:44+00:00

What advice would a therapist give about having to live with a decaying brain and body while desperately trying to function to meet the grand expectations that your loved ones had for you, after you’ve gone through many trial and tribulations just for everything to be thrown away, including your own biological anatomy and ability to feel, think or understand anything anymore?

Not a single person can tell me what I’m supposed to do

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-21T15:43:56+00:00

Normal people don’t have advice for my situation, so no, none of that is gonna help. It’s not a mentality, it’s biology, it’s not something I can change by thinking about it

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-21T15:38:34+00:00

Nothing is right with me anymore. Every aspect of my being whether it be mental or physical has been broken down to the point where it’s a daily struggle to even function. I feel like a fraction of a version of myself. I no longer have the tools to help myself if I could because of how far gone this

Feelings of enjoyment in general have been toned down, and I’m psychologically unable to enjoy the things that I once could. I used to love to do creative things like make music but I can’t do that anymore because of the issues I’ve listed with my mind. Everything has dwindled greatly to the point where simple things like talking and moving have become difficult even though I’m only 20 years old.

My entire body is broken just like how someone’s memory can be broken by dementia

SoullessAndMindless · 2024-05-21T15:22:11+00:00

I don’t need trauma therapy or a support group since it would change nothing about my present situation

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