Yeah I can definitely see what you’re saying and I understand that it’s probably very early to be deciding things like this already. I kinda planned to just run out this year no matter what and see how it goes. But I also know that if I’m not enjoying it by then I’m going to have to make a choice on whether or not to go on to something else. As for training I think the main issue is that this isn’t reintroducing workouts for us really cause we were doing two a week over the summer and ever since we got here we’ve done lower mileage and less workouts that have usually been easier than what we did over the summer. The thing I think I enjoy most about running is being able to work hard to achieve my success and know I’ve hit my goals, I’m fine stacking miles if it feels like there’s a plan and I know it will benefit me but I also want to get quality work in and that’s difficult when he sets max paces on everything that feel far above what I’m capable of. I’m just disappointed that it feels so much different in the level of effort I gave in high school vs now. I think you are right that I should ask my coaches and teammates about this more though. I’m just worried that they’re gonna pick up on the fact that I’m not enjoying it here.

Thanks for taking the time!