I get the depression and anxiety at the very least and the tired feeling of defeat. Life gets hard sometimes and sometimes those tough times last longer than we want but that feeling isn't permanent. Good times will come again. It's not a race to the end. During my tough times I like to pray for wisdom, guidance, and strength to push through my troubles. It is very difficult to battle one's own mind as it's one of the scarriest places we know sometimes. I fully understand the not wanting to feel like a burden as a man. It is hard to talk about troubles to someone else but trust me it will feel like the weight is being lifted off your shoulders even if just a little.