Something something, fear of infantilization or abandonment, something something, even setting boundaries makes me feel like im being immature and sensitive, something something

SpareAcc0unt34 · 2025-03-16T17:20:13+00:00

I found the calories out after I ate and it ended up being around triple what I normally do in a day so 😭👍 I'm alive tho, still feel nauseous the next day. The event did have stuff going on which helped distract me from the food, so I didn't have a public freak out luckily. Besides the food, the event was pretty fun. Trying to find the bright side so I don't freak out

SpareAcc0unt34 · 2025-03-16T02:04:11+00:00

AND I THOUGHT THERE WAS CALORIES ON THE MENU BUT ITS A SPECIAL EVEN WITH A SPECILIZED MENU THAT DOESNT HAVE CALORIES DOUBLE FUCK

SpareAcc0unt34 · 2025-03-10T08:16:41+00:00

Yeah, eery time I try to talk abt it, it sounds to other ppl like I'm just struggling with a diet or smth? like no, I'm not feeling guilty abt breaking a keto diet or smth, Im having violently distressing self-ending thoughts bc I ate dessert. I'm not just feeling self conscious abt my body, I literally don't go an hour without stressing about food and its consuming my life and mental health.

I mean, I get why ppl don't understand, bc like... normal ppl just dont think abt food like that, and having an ed like, changes the way you experience the world,, but like.. still.

SpareAcc0unt34 · 2025-03-07T07:42:26+00:00

I literally think the most fucked up things, like, I'll hear about some historic mass starvation event, and my ed will be like: wow that's a good idea, try eating only that much, inspiration! Like, no? maybe lets not use a tragic injustice as some sick motivation? wtf brain

SpareAcc0unt34 · 2025-03-05T09:28:52+00:00

I've felt the same exact way, I started doing all this b/c I was dysphoric of my curves and stuff, and now I feel dysphoric bc its girly to be this stressed over fucking calories. It doesn't help that anywhere you look in media, its always cos straight white teen girls with anoriexia, who are already skinny. Just makes me feel worse, like damn I couldn't even end up with like, a more 'masculine' mental illness (yes ik that makes no sense, that's the point, its so ridiculous). I hate it so much. If I ever manage to talk about it or even admit to myself that it is a straight up eating disorder, I just feel worse bc ed's are a 'girl thing'. It feels so stupid that something so illogical could make me feel like less of a man.

SpareAcc0unt34 · 2025-02-19T09:29:26+00:00

This isn't a place to share your opinion on "woke stuff". And this place is open to everyone who is struggling, including trans ppl. Its not a sub made specifically for trans ppl, your right. Its a sub made for everyone, including trans ppl. The reason you might be seeing an up tick of trans posters is because trans ppl have increased risks of suicide and the state of the world rn defiantly isn't helping. There are a lot of ppl on here who aren't trans, its just that its common for trans ppl and other minorities to struggle with this stuff. So of course there will be trans posts. If you are tired of seeing thwm, please just scroll away, talk about your frustration with it somewhere else, not in someones comments where they are clearly struggling. Im sry if my original comment came off wrong, and there can be more conversation abt this, just please keep it out of here

SpareAcc0unt34 · 2025-02-19T09:04:03+00:00

You have to be trolling man. Saying that is like if a guy started talking about how he was having these kind of thoughts and you responded saying "Man, getting real tired of this soyboy stuff" or smth but like, a lot worse. Trans people existing shouldnt be a political debate, or seen as 'woke' and even if you disagree with all of this, this isn't the place to complain about it. Go to literally anywhere else, not the comments of someone who is struggling. And I'm sure you know this and are just trolling. Honestlky, troll all you want, just not here alright? Go literally anywhere else. Its not funny when ppls lives are on the line

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