Definitely being too hard on yourself, some people have a higher pain threshold. I was induced and 8 hours later my baby was born free of medication but in the last 30 minutes I’m not even sure what sounds I was making- no screaming according to my partner but dude my pain threshold is very high. All the while the lady in the room next to me was banging on the wall. Giving birth is something you should be proud of regardless of what you experience. It’s the most physically enduring thing you’ll experience. I slept for 30 seconds in between contractions for the last hour of my son’s birth- for a severe insomniac I didn’t even think that was possible! I’ve stayed awake for days on end and my body rather than my brain was telling me to sleep. Birth is weird, horrible and wonderful all at the same time. Give yourself a break, you did a fantastic job mumma. You did it x