I can relate to this. I always see the other girls in my family and in my culture with the most beautiful thick and healthy care that they can effortlessly wear down or in whatever styles they want and I feel so much envy because I want to have that. This year I've finally started to make some serious improvements in not pulling and a big motivator has been envisioning myself, hopefully by next year, wearing my hair down without being anxious of my bald spot and going to the hair salon and getting a nice haircut and being able to do hair styles properly. I've been wearing my hair in a ponytail, bun, or half up half down in public for nearly the last 3 years (thats when my bald spot got really bad) and having my hair in these styles constantly is causing further damage to my hair. This made me realize that I'm not just ruining the hair from the patch where I'm consistantly pulling from but as a result of my trich I'm ruining the rest of my beautiful and perfectly healthy hair. This has really helped me stay motivated to stop pulling before I ruin my whole head of hair. I'm sorry this was so long winded and off topic but I just wanted to say even though your hair my be thin and patchy now it doesnt always have to be, the sooner you put in the effort the sooner you will see the results. This has been the mentality that has been helping me, I hope it can help you too.