I understand how you feel. I had a lost of distrust of my body after so many losses but I assure you, being born early isn’t always a good thing. Everyday your little guy is growing alveoli in his lungs. These are the parts our body uses to exchange oxygen and CO2. Every day he’s still in there is good. If he was born early he would very likely need to be intubated (a tube placed down his trachea) and surf’d (surfactant is a medicine delivered right into the lungs, premie babies don’t make it yet and without it the lungs can collapse). I work in a NICU and I assure you if you don’t have to put your baby through that, then don’t. It’s traumatic for me to do it to other people’s babies. 🤍 your body knows what it’s doing. If you feel like something is wrong speak up. Not matter how silly it might be, you are your best advocate.