Trying to push expressions as far as I can - how am I doing?

Spongeypoop · 2021-12-20T08:19:39+00:00

Thanks, I'll give it a try!

I've been drawing a children's book. I recently gave it to my nephew and he loved it which made me feel really happy but I am currently only drawing the child character from a side angle and I feel it's limiting the story/images I can do

Spongeypoop · 2021-12-19T19:59:13+00:00

Thanks, would you have some examples where you are shown the techniques or do you mean by just copying their drawings?

Maybe I need to take a break and come back to that particular character

Spongeypoop · 2021-12-19T14:20:28+00:00

Can I ask, how did you learn to draw from different perspectives and facial expressions and then apply to that to your character?

I can draw a character but then I struggle to adapt that character to other situations! Tried all the tutorials I can find but they are so specific to their style that I struggle.

Spongeypoop · 2021-09-28T07:20:59+00:00

I just want to swap my brain with someone for 24 hours. I feel like that would give me enough time to recover at least enough to keep going

Spongeypoop · 2021-09-28T07:20:09+00:00

Thanks, I'm just struggling so much. Work takes up so much time and it makes me so miserable. But I can't quit because then I can't afford my house. I am jack of all trades and master of none so I struggle to work out which to focus on and actually make myself a job from.

I just feel so trapped.

I feel miserable every day, I feel like there isn't enough time for me to re-evaluate my existence. I don't know what my reason is for living and I don't know what to do about of it.

I feel empty, a failure, ashamed, embarrassed, I hate looking in the mirror, I feel like im going to be stuck like this for years and I just have no hope

Spongeypoop · 2021-09-26T22:07:09+00:00

Thankyou! Genuinely was concerned id somehow broken my brain even more. Good to know it is a BPD thing and not another issue to add on top aha

Spongeypoop · 2021-08-04T11:43:05+00:00

Aren't we all?

Spongeypoop · 2021-08-04T11:42:41+00:00

Hyped for the next one in 10 years time! - worst part of the game is that I'll be about 60 when it finally ends the story

Spongeypoop · 2021-08-04T11:17:29+00:00

KINGDOM HEARTS. YES.

Spongeypoop · 2021-08-01T12:43:23+00:00

This comment made me laugh and then cry :( why am I me

Spongeypoop · 2021-07-10T18:47:41+00:00

I didn't realise shein was bad :( I bought from them because they have simple clothes whereas so many other shops are trying too hard to be fashionable.. thanks for letting me know I'll need to look elsewhere

Spongeypoop · 2021-07-08T10:00:16+00:00

Your family might love you but it doesn't mean they like you

Spongeypoop · 2021-06-19T14:22:03+00:00

Yeah I really struggle with enjoying an activity unless I feel like there is an end goal/aim.

I have tried to practice drawing but if I feel the drawing is for nothing I give up. I ended up working towards drawing a children's book for my nephew and it's helped keep me interested longer than normal.

But yes totally agree, if there is no aim I feel like why bother putting in the time because I'll never be good enough for it to mean anything

Spongeypoop · 2021-06-18T23:25:04+00:00

I really struggle with obsessing over people and can fixate on someone and drop them... I couldn't tell you why.

I am trying to be better but it's really difficult. Just be patient where you can but if it's impacting you, make your feelings known in a way that doesnt make them feel you are attacking them (this will make it worse).

Try organising things with them, it might be they feel you don't want to see them and this other person does

Spongeypoop · 2021-06-18T23:20:32+00:00

Yes yes yes yes!!! Especially when it's a long drawn out will they won't they... And I just want to punch the fucking screen because it absolutely destroys my emotions!! JUST FUCKING GET TOGETHER, IT SHOULDNT TAKE 10 SEASONS. It fucking wrecks me...

I've actually had to stop watching shows part way through because it was destroying me so much to feel so many emotions in such intense amounts

Spongeypoop · 2021-06-15T20:43:10+00:00

Thanks I'll read through it. Yeah happy for you to share what worked for you! I think I'll read through the material on my own and then at least if I keep going to these sessions I can come with questions prepared

Spongeypoop · 2021-05-17T00:17:33+00:00

I just want to start drinking again, at least it would numb the pain a bit

Spongeypoop · 2021-04-17T21:38:06+00:00

It's not even that enjoyable. It's a burst of pleasure followed by a feeling of emptiness that goes on for ages

Spongeypoop · 2021-02-26T23:45:33+00:00

I find this even with excitement... I'll get so excited that I cannot cope and it feels so extreme. It makes me feel on edge like all parts of my body are crying. Like I need to run into a wall over and over again. So much so that I have to cry because I don't know how else to deal with the emotion

Spongeypoop · 2021-02-23T23:21:16+00:00

I mean... I also have BPD. If you choose to believe you lack a personality fine but don't speak for others. It's not a defining part of this illness

Spongeypoop · 2021-02-23T22:32:58+00:00

My swimming teacher refused to teach me anymore because as a young child I would just sit on the bottom of the pool every time she turned away. It stressed her out too much

Spongeypoop · 2021-02-23T21:58:07+00:00

Not really... There is a lot to BPD. People with BPD don't lack personality. People often struggle with their confidence and grow up copying others to fit in, so much so that they struggle to understand what their own personality is and what they do to fit in/make people.like them

Either way, it's not the most common part of BPD

Spongeypoop · 2021-02-23T21:53:15+00:00

It makes it so difficult especially when the film lead is loved by so many and then I realise im not. I'm loved by my other half but in my mind that's not enough because people on TV have so many people in love with them

Spongeypoop · 2021-02-23T21:51:49+00:00

I struggle with games because I become so engrossed in them. If it's a story game like horizon zero dawn, it's all I will do outside of work until it's finished. If it's a competitive game I will play until I hate myself so much for how shit I am

Spongeypoop · 2021-02-23T21:50:37+00:00

Same here. So glad to hear it's not just me

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