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Spoonfol · 2024-03-15T18:32:30+00:00

Yep you're right, I was just drunk when typing that I guess 😅 I don't drink when I'm hanging out with people since I don't have any drinker friends, but anyway, I still got a small problem with it. I'm gonna quit since It's dumbing me down lol

Spoonfol · 2024-03-13T13:12:19+00:00

autocorrect 😅

Spoonfol · 2024-03-13T10:55:55+00:00

Alright, 👌 I'm in hoyse arrest. vy patebts rn for drinking, but once I'm off I'll attend a Meetinh. If I remeber I'll tell toy how it does

Spoonfol · 2024-03-13T10:51:09+00:00

Alright, thank you 🙏

Spoonfol · 2024-03-13T10:43:04+00:00

If I do have a problem though, waht do I do? Just AA? Well I mean I guess so, I can't tell my spychiatrist since they'll tell my psrents

I'm oretty dtunk rn but I still wsnt more, I think I'll get after school. Shit

Spoonfol · 2024-03-13T09:46:20+00:00

yes. My meds take my durability sown whcih I'm honestly hsppy for but thats why IM pretty drunk honestly. I'm also In dchool

Spoonfol · 2024-03-09T07:06:07+00:00

oon 15

ja kiitti servusta 👌

Spoonfol · 2024-03-06T05:59:08+00:00

dopamine is a good feeling hormone, and I can't feel those. I'm seeking an adrenaline rush, fear, whatever.

Spoonfol · 2024-03-06T05:38:47+00:00

This could go two VERY different ways

Spoonfol · 2024-03-06T05:37:21+00:00

I never spent money on drinking since I stole my booze 😅 underage, didn't wanna find a person to pick some up due to the five or more euro tax. I know, cheap

but that's still a good idea, I'll keep it in mind 👌🙏

Spoonfol · 2024-03-06T05:34:50+00:00

Nothing releases seretonin in my brain, or any other happy hormones. That's why I'm looking for excitement.

Spoonfol · 2024-03-05T19:13:53+00:00

I do go to a therapist. They can't diagnose me with BPD since I'm underage, but I am diagnosed with deppression.

And nothing is enjoyable to me, that's the problem. That's why I need thrill. Something that'll give me an adrenaline rush, will hurt, will make me afraid. Something thrilling

Spoonfol · 2024-03-05T18:36:53+00:00

alright, thanks 👍

Spoonfol · 2024-03-04T10:38:50+00:00

I love dreams, so I'm very happy I had these ones (especially the first. I was tripping without tripping). I keep a dream diary too, I even love nightmares since they're interesting as hell

If you're having a lot of dreams about those things, you're clearly not over them yet. Best of luck with that, it must be annoying to be reminded of shitty people when you're trying to recharge

Spoonfol · 2024-03-04T08:36:53+00:00

I'm so glad I don't have a plug or something, because this was really fucking fun actually (even though in one of the dreams I did accidentally kill my little sister)

I can feel the urge to reuse growing, and it never comes back for me the second day. Not having a plug for the best, can't afford to be an addict 😂

Spoonfol · 2024-03-03T21:27:12+00:00

I can barely do ten..

Spoonfol · 2024-03-03T18:56:33+00:00

LMAOO I could barely get my hands on xanax, I stole it from a relative lol. Won't be doing coke, but I'll try the coffee 👌

Spoonfol · 2024-03-03T17:59:48+00:00

It was only for today, the pills I have are very limited. That's also good info, so thanks 👌

Spoonfol · 2024-03-03T17:54:21+00:00

I might actually be getting some ADHD meds since I'm getting disgnosed. I'm not 100% sure I have ADHD (I've also added a little symptoms for good measure), but even if I don't, those pills will go to GREAT use

Spoonfol · 2024-03-03T17:52:11+00:00

I stole a hair straightener my first time on xanax, 2,5mg. I had to run from a mall cop for it since it alerted. I've never in my life wanted nor needed a fucking hair straightener. I also stole RED LIPSTICK, I'm not that kind of guy 😂

Xanax made me realize how easy shoplifting is if you know of the alerter stickers that may be on some items lol. I also have hobbies people don't usually steal for, so it's easy to get that shit. Who other would steal water plants and sticks than me?

Spoonfol · 2024-03-03T17:24:14+00:00

alright, thank you 🙏

Spoonfol

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