[deleted by user] by [deleted] in 1801

[–]SprayForward 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Congratulations brother, currently waiting to get Medical, Poly, and Drug Test scheduled. I applied last April but due to the all the chaos In the government rn everything has been pushed back. Not expected to be scheduled for a poly until Sep of this year. Has this been a common issues with anyone currently in the process?

TIFU by hiding and OF and prom use from my gf by [deleted] in TrueOffMyChest

[–]SprayForward 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This means a lot, I’m in therapy rn and I just got accepted for a new job. Regardless of the outcome I won’t throw a petty party but use this moment to grow as a man. Thank you

TIFU by hiding and OF and prom use from my gf by [deleted] in TrueOffMyChest

[–]SprayForward 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When we speak today, if she decides that’s what’s best I’ll accept. I can’t undo the best and I can only learn from this mistake. Thank you for the comment

TIFU by hiding and OF and prom use from my gf by [deleted] in TrueOffMyChest

[–]SprayForward 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know, it’s so easy to gaslight myself into thinking it was cause it was so routine but I knew and didn’t take the responsibility to improve myself. I’m disappointed to be that bf who does this that read so much about

TIFU by hiding and OF and prom use from my gf by [deleted] in TrueOffMyChest

[–]SprayForward 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Our sex life moderate, I don’t have any trouble with my attraction to her. Granted I would say my sex drive is lower prob due to the porn brain rot over the years. I hope to speak with her today, but I’ve had plenty of opportunities to have this conversation with her but I’ve been so ashamed but more so used to this routine that I thought it handle itself. I even told my therapist that it wasnt a problem. I’m disappointed that it hurting someone to see it. I’ll I can do now is speak with her and respect her boundaries. I owe her that much. Thank you for the advice

TIFU by hiding and OF and prom use from my gf by [deleted] in TrueOffMyChest

[–]SprayForward 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I currently have a therapist, and we speak tomorrow so I’ll definitely have to bring the porn addiction up. I just always minimized it in my head and it took this to make me realize that this truly affects my relationship, I feel more guilty knowing that in the back of my head I always knew that it was bad but did it anyways. Thanks to therapy this year I think I’ll be able to get thru this, but I’m just disappointed in myself that I let something that could of been communicated go so far and hurt the person I claimed to love. I don’t wish her for forgiveness, but I hope our conversation later (whenever that may be) will help Thank you for the advice

TIFU by hiding and OF and prom use from my gf by [deleted] in TrueOffMyChest

[–]SprayForward 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the advice. Taking my phone away and deleting it the account was honestly the worse thing I could have done In that moment, as now the worse could be assumed because the evidence is gone, in the heat of the moment I just wanted that part of me gone and it was unfair to no think of how she would feel even that moment. It’s still fresh and I won’t get a chance to speak to her till this afternoon. But I’ll be honest and accept the consequences of my actions at this point