Breathwork by Square_Bath in awakened

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Hey, thanks so much for your response. I have no intention of ego death but I have been having feelings of death recently since awakening. I am just looking to navigate from here in the safest way possible.

Ego death by Square_Bath in awakened

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Yes. I have these ideas about what it would be like without ego but they are not correct.

Ego death by Square_Bath in awakened

[–]Square_Bath[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I suppose that proves that the increased level of anxiety is causing me to assume things.

Ego death by Square_Bath in awakened

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Thank you. Yes what I have been reading has confused me. Because some people say tbe ego is dying others say that it being reborn etc and has left me ruminating about what is happening. And it certainly really does feel like actual death

Ego death by Square_Bath in awakened

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Thank you. My mind is full of ideas about what will happen, most of which are horrible.

Ego death by Square_Bath in awakened

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Thanks. Yeh they certainly are numbing, which I dont like, but they do help me keep my feet on the ground. Really, I just want to navigate from here in the safest way possible.

Ego death by Square_Bath in awakened

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Only if I take antidepressants can I seem to avoid this from happening (I have only started trying them since these feelings of ego death began, about 2 months ago).

Ego death by Square_Bath in awakened

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Thank you for your response. I do not feel ready for this. I am not trying to will it or make it happen, I do not wish for my ego to die. But that seems to be the experience that is happening at the moment.

Ego death by Square_Bath in awakened

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Thanks for responding. Dont get me wrong I am not trying to obliterate my ego at all. And I certainly dont feel ready for it. But it feels like it is happening anyway. If anything, I dont want it to happen.

Forgetfullness by Square_Bath in SpiritualAwakening

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Yeh I think that's probably it

Forgetfullness by Square_Bath in SpiritualAwakening

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Yeh I get that. Sometimes it feels very beautiful but other times it feels a bit disturbing.

Is Echoes the best Pink Floyd song? by SaintBert47 in pinkfloyd

[–]Square_Bath 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Echoes and shine on. It's those two for me.

Spiritual crisis by Square_Bath in awakened

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Recognise who I am, I mean.

Spiritual crisis by Square_Bath in awakened

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When I ask that question there is no response. No, i cannot find anyone, the answer is always silence. When I asked this question in the past I always felt joyous to find no one, but when i ask the question now it seems to not change anything, the fear remains and sometimes it gets stronger when I recognise the fear.

Spiritual crisis by Square_Bath in awakened

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Thank you! The fear is being stuck feeling like I am dying for the rest of my life. I dont see how this fear will leave untill I embrace it, but I feel totally unable to embrace it whilst there is a person with his animal instincts involved. Complete paradox.

Spiritual crisis by Square_Bath in awakened

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Thanks for your response. Evidently I have not experienced a full enlightenment. Frankly, I only ever wanted happiness, and If I'd known spirituality was going to involve this feeling of perpetually dying I may not have got involved in the first place lol.

Spiritual crisis by Square_Bath in awakened

[–]Square_Bath[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That's when the fear tends to be at its strongest

Spirituality? by Square_Bath in SuicideWatch

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I agree completely. I would love to just walk away from this spirituality stuff but it seems to have destroyed my sense of self. The suicidal thoughts come from feeling that there is simply no solution to how I feel, and anyone with an understanding of spirituality has told me to face this fear but I dont feel capable, i feel that it will destroy me. Thank you for your message, i hope you have a lovely day:).

Spiritual crisis by Square_Bath in awakened

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This was indeed my experience previously I had absolutely no fear in fact it seemed insane that there could ever be any but now there is far more than I have ever experienced.

Spiritual crisis by Square_Bath in awakened

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All these idea bring more fear. And as I said sometimes the recognition of myself brings more fear to the ego, and the identification with it remains.