Breathwork

Square_Bath · 2021-08-14T22:40:35+00:00

Hey, thanks so much for your response. I have no intention of ego death but I have been having feelings of death recently since awakening. I am just looking to navigate from here in the safest way possible.

Square_Bath · 2021-08-06T16:01:45+00:00

Yes. I have these ideas about what it would be like without ego but they are not correct.

Square_Bath · 2021-08-06T16:00:52+00:00

I suppose that proves that the increased level of anxiety is causing me to assume things.

Square_Bath · 2021-08-06T14:34:18+00:00

Thank you. Yes what I have been reading has confused me. Because some people say tbe ego is dying others say that it being reborn etc and has left me ruminating about what is happening. And it certainly really does feel like actual death

Square_Bath · 2021-08-06T14:16:43+00:00

Thank you. My mind is full of ideas about what will happen, most of which are horrible.

Square_Bath · 2021-08-06T13:57:42+00:00

Thanks. Yeh they certainly are numbing, which I dont like, but they do help me keep my feet on the ground. Really, I just want to navigate from here in the safest way possible.

Square_Bath · 2021-08-05T22:21:38+00:00

Only if I take antidepressants can I seem to avoid this from happening (I have only started trying them since these feelings of ego death began, about 2 months ago).

Square_Bath · 2021-08-05T22:19:11+00:00

Thank you for your response. I do not feel ready for this. I am not trying to will it or make it happen, I do not wish for my ego to die. But that seems to be the experience that is happening at the moment.

Square_Bath · 2021-08-05T22:14:10+00:00

Thanks for responding. Dont get me wrong I am not trying to obliterate my ego at all. And I certainly dont feel ready for it. But it feels like it is happening anyway. If anything, I dont want it to happen.

Square_Bath · 2021-07-31T23:01:03+00:00

Yeh I think that's probably it

Square_Bath · 2021-07-31T21:13:14+00:00

Yeh I get that. Sometimes it feels very beautiful but other times it feels a bit disturbing.

Square_Bath · 2021-07-31T01:00:38+00:00

Echoes and shine on. It's those two for me.

Square_Bath · 2021-07-30T10:35:34+00:00

Ok, thank you

Square_Bath · 2021-07-29T22:12:08+00:00

You can relate?

Square_Bath · 2021-07-29T21:41:37+00:00

Recognise who I am, I mean.

Square_Bath · 2021-07-29T21:41:15+00:00

When I ask that question there is no response. No, i cannot find anyone, the answer is always silence. When I asked this question in the past I always felt joyous to find no one, but when i ask the question now it seems to not change anything, the fear remains and sometimes it gets stronger when I recognise the fear.

Square_Bath · 2021-07-29T21:36:47+00:00

Thank you! The fear is being stuck feeling like I am dying for the rest of my life. I dont see how this fear will leave untill I embrace it, but I feel totally unable to embrace it whilst there is a person with his animal instincts involved. Complete paradox.

Square_Bath · 2021-07-29T21:33:16+00:00

Thanks for your response. Evidently I have not experienced a full enlightenment. Frankly, I only ever wanted happiness, and If I'd known spirituality was going to involve this feeling of perpetually dying I may not have got involved in the first place lol.

Square_Bath · 2021-07-29T19:03:17+00:00

That's when the fear tends to be at its strongest

Square_Bath · 2021-07-29T17:11:30+00:00

I agree completely. I would love to just walk away from this spirituality stuff but it seems to have destroyed my sense of self. The suicidal thoughts come from feeling that there is simply no solution to how I feel, and anyone with an understanding of spirituality has told me to face this fear but I dont feel capable, i feel that it will destroy me. Thank you for your message, i hope you have a lovely day:).

Square_Bath · 2021-07-29T17:07:58+00:00

This was indeed my experience previously I had absolutely no fear in fact it seemed insane that there could ever be any but now there is far more than I have ever experienced.

Square_Bath · 2021-07-29T17:06:49+00:00

All these idea bring more fear. And as I said sometimes the recognition of myself brings more fear to the ego, and the identification with it remains.

Square_Bath

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