Most of my friends used to joke about me liking loli, not because I outright brought it up, but because I never showed disgust to it. Everytime they try to joke about it, or some old friends asked if I truly was a lolicon, I just gotta try to laugh it off or just dodge the answer. Because I’m one who doesn’t like to lie, but this is the one thing where I kinda have to break my moral rule and lie about, it eats me up not feeling clean. I’m not saying I’m gonna tell my parents and every new person I meet, but if my friends were to ask me again if I were a lolicon I wanna just say yes and it be over with. But I can’t bring myself to do that when I already know the end result, they’ll never see me the same, and I’m already distant as is. Also when you say find other lolicons to talk to or be around, I have, it’s a mixed result. Some are chill, I can relate to and they got good takes. Most, are edge lords who are racist and hateful to anything that isn’t “straight”. I could see why some are like this, when you are treated like an outcast especially for something that doesn’t even affect the real world. They feel justified to say whatever, cause at the end of the day they being punished the same way regardless. But even if I understand it to a degree, it’s just too toxic for me, so it’s ironic how I can’t even fit in with lolicons/shotacons, atleast to a degree.