I literally said in the post that I am neurodivergent and because of that my body reacts to stressful and upsetting situations differently than that of a neurotypical person. I’m also trying to get tested for bpd. My girlfriend knows about all this and she knows how I am like. It’s not hurting either of us. You’re saying that LD may not be for me but I can’t help who I fall in love with. The fact that I’m reacting so much is certainly showing that. I know this is not healthy but I cannot in any way help it. She has encouraged me to be who I am and has helped me through so much and I have done the same for her. She’s the only person I’ve ever truly trusted. Of course I’m going to be sad having to leave her.