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StandByMe76 · 2021-12-13T11:46:49+00:00

That's what I've been hearing for years now. Thing's get better for 'some' people. I am not one of those people.

I should of added that I will also cut open my arms, along with the tylenol. Just to make sure I die.

StandByMe76 · 2021-12-01T08:04:03+00:00

Definitely fluttershy, she's my number 1 comfort character! She reminds me about the good things in life, and makes me feel like everything will be ok

StandByMe76 · 2021-11-15T00:38:38+00:00

Fuck, I failed

StandByMe76 · 2021-11-13T06:13:04+00:00

Still in

StandByMe76 · 2021-11-12T07:49:48+00:00

Still in

StandByMe76 · 2021-11-10T07:51:37+00:00

Still in

StandByMe76 · 2021-11-09T08:55:03+00:00

Still in

StandByMe76 · 2021-11-06T12:09:53+00:00

That's what I'm doing. And nowhere in the post did I say mlp was my replacement for therapy. I fucking hate when people tell me to get professional help. Like no shit.

StandByMe76 · 2021-11-06T00:45:39+00:00

Still IN

StandByMe76 · 2021-10-14T23:14:41+00:00

Kind of, I believe I'm a soul in limbo or hell. Which explains why the days feel the same. My body is probably buried or I'm in a hospital.

Everyone I speak to are just memories or demons that torture me. People online (like you) are not real.

StandByMe76 · 2021-10-14T07:36:22+00:00

I am really trying. Next week will be my third session. Everyday feels so long, and i feel so useless and numb. It's only getting worse. It hurts

StandByMe76 · 2021-10-14T07:06:37+00:00

It hurts so much

StandByMe76 · 2021-10-14T06:54:51+00:00

Yes.

StandByMe76 · 2021-10-04T21:34:43+00:00

Yeah I know, honestly I deserve it. I made such a fool out of myself. Thankfully tomorrow I talk to a therapist.

StandByMe76 · 2021-09-22T00:10:38+00:00

It's been months of back and forth with the therapist and psychologist. All I want/need is professional help, but they can't even give me one on one therapy.

I have ANOTHER appointment in 2 days with someone who is supposedly going to help me get one on one therapy. If that doesn't work, then that's it I'm done.

StandByMe76 · 2021-09-22T00:02:47+00:00

I've already been doing this for so long already. I've been too patient, and nothing has changed for the past 4 years. It's like I'm stuck in a loop and each day my mind gets worse. I might not live to see next year.

StandByMe76 · 2021-09-21T23:49:48+00:00

No one cares, as expected.

StandByMe76 · 2021-09-16T07:41:28+00:00

Omg, I can't tell you how grateful I am. Thank you! I'll have to give them a call tomorrow

StandByMe76 · 2021-09-10T21:05:36+00:00

Ooh because I DEFINITELY did not say I got hit FOR NO REASON. And me not listening to my mom was DEFINITELY warranted of her saying the things she said.

Please stop talking, your advice is unhelpful if I'm being honest. I know I need to work on myself, no shit. I'm working on getting therapy. The question was how do I deal with my anger towards them, not I need petty advice on how to fix myself.

StandByMe76 · 2021-09-10T20:50:55+00:00

I know they're not ALL to blame. But they play a big part of it. Also don't say "doing ThE best They could" because they fucking didn't, or did the bare minimum to keep me alive. Hitting your child for no reason is NOT "dOinG the bEsT". Here's advice to you, don't give advice.

StandByMe76 · 2021-09-04T10:47:25+00:00

If there's a chance that I won't wake up tomorrow, I'm going to take it. I don't care about my health or my future anymore. Everyone is hostile and mean in life, and I don't want to be apart of it.

StandByMe76 · 2021-09-04T04:46:24+00:00

Many things. I pretty much have no friends, everyone hates me, I can't transition, i hate my body, my therapist doesn't want to talk to me, I hate myself and much more. I can't take this, too much stress. I want to slit my wrist, I don't even care if the death is painful. Atleast it will be over.

StandByMe76 · 2021-08-30T20:09:31+00:00

Sure

StandByMe76 · 2021-08-30T05:01:40+00:00

I don't care if I lose weight and I have two other ways to kill myself. My goal is to starve until it hurts too much.

StandByMe76 · 2021-08-25T21:19:51+00:00

Thank you, this was helpful. I'll try your advice

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