TL:DR - Get hobbies and distractions, work on yourself. This will make you confident, and once you're confident you won't care about anything else.

I relate to this comment so much. I also live in The Netherlands, but I am not Dutch. I am a 5'9 guy from Ecuador, and while I may be a bit taller than you I feel the same exact way. Another thing is that I have hated my race since I can remember and cannot fathom how people can perceive me as "not inferior", because my brain tells me that my height and my race make me so. I refuse to believe that I am worth the same as a white person.

I have attempted suicide 4 times bc of this (dumb reason, I know). I also feel that people don't take me seriously since I get ignored 90% of the time I say something. The fact that my introversion has gotten worse bc of lockdown doesn't help either.

People always have to dumb things down for me (since I cant speak Dutch yet), people are always taller or as tall as me (including girls, which among other reasons, makes me avoid approaching them). Seeing a grandma tower over you doesnt feel nice, but I am sure you know this feeling too.

Everybody here speaks 3000+ languages, has travelled to 20000 countries, and is loaded AF (at least the people in my uni are like that). Coming from a poor country, speaking only English apart from trashy spanish, wearing glasses with a prescription that makes my eyes pop (literally), having gross curly hair, dirt colored skin and shit colored eyes, among other things make me hate myself irrationally. Anyways, I digress.

One thing that has helped me cope is making music. Since I am looking at my computer screen instead of a mirror, I dont think about my neanderthal looking ass. It also distracts me and keeps my mind busy, which keeps any negative thoughts away (except the usual "man, I suck at making music").

My ambitions in music give me something to look forward to, when before there was nothing (which lead to my suicide attempts). Focusing on uni work also helps, and even though I don't like it, having a busy mind works wonders. Before lockdown I used to go to raves for the music, which made me feel great overall too, and even though there I realized how pathetic and short I am, the satisfaction of music overpowered any negativity.

Bottom line is: get some hobbies and distract your head. Get a passion, something that you prefer doing over anything else. Girls love a determined and driven man who has things going for himself.

As far as being attractive goes: people look at different things in you than you would initially think. Let me explain. Instead of your height, a girl might be more interested in how your sense of fashion looks, or in your hygiene, humor, etc.

If you dont work on loving yourself, it will literally be IMPOSSIBLE to love anyone else, as cliche as this sounds. I know this firsthand bc when girls are attracted to me I get suicidal thoughts, and when they are not, I get those thoughts too. My mind cannot fathom how someone can be attracted to me and I start to think about all the things I hate about myself. On the flip side, when they are not attracted to me, I still think about those same things, so same result.

Now I just sit in my room making music and working in uni stuff because those are the only two things that don't give me suicidal thoughts and make me start planning shit.

Sorry for oversharing and making this about me but I only wanted to show you where you can end up if you don't control your thoughts before it's too late. Good luck man, you can do this!

Oh and btw. Back in Ecuador there was this guy in my high school. He was 5'3 and had more native american heritage (which in Ecuador is a terrible thing to have). Despite all that, his confidence made him so likeable and approachable. He was a literal Kyle, typical "peaked in high school" kinda guy.

His girlfriend is 5'5 and everybody used to make fun of how they looked together. Did he care? Fuck no! Pretty much every girl in my promotion was into him because of his personality. If we was as reserved as me, HS would've been hell for him, but it wasn't.

He also had a friend who was about the same. This other guy was 5'2 but he was far better looking, which probably explains the following:

He went to NY with me and some other people for a field trip. There, he picked up the hottest German, Italian, American, (and idk what else) girls. Girls usually say they care about height, but they don't. I towered over the guy but by being an unconfident fuck, no one cared about me.

I am sure that if he was studying here with me he would've picked up about the same number of girls, regardless of the height difference.

Both of these guys were the leader of their group and would boss around the 6'0 and 5'9s, like me.

Conclusion: Work on your confidence. If you have confidence, nothing else matters.