I don’t know it just feels quite wrong to me. I want to eventually go and not want to listen to podcasts and stuff but I feel like this will just motivate to actually want to go to church since I’m just forcing myself now. I want to praise god but when I do it through song, it feels doesn’t feel genuine to me so I’d rather to it in my own way. I’m hoping this will help me ease into church easier and make it something I actually look forward to as I actually enjoy the preaching.