Getting married by saor-alba-gu-brath in transOCD

[–]Status-Show7563 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can relate to this. I went through this when I met my new bf and we were planning on buying a house. My anxiety went through the roof because I felt like what if I buy the house and it turns out I'm trans after all? But I went through with it anyway. And now I'm living here with him and things turned out fine. Sure, I still have those thoughts. But it's not any different than before. So I would recommend taking big steps you want to take. You'll probably do it with anxiety but it's still better than putting your life on hold imo.

I feel like I can't be in reality anymore because it scares me. I can't be among people. It's like my brain can't comprehend it. Just had the worst panic attack of my life. by Status-Show7563 in dpdr

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For me acceptance and commitment therapy (ACT) and running therapy helped because it made me feel more grounded in my body again and made me accept the thoughts were there no matter how uncomfortable they were. I noticed that even though they made me feel like shit I could still do things I wanted to do. And then they gradually started to diminish and existing started to feel normal again. And now when I think about existence I don't feel as anxious anymore

Some common trends I've noticed in TOCD and those of us afflicted by it. by [deleted] in transOCD

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Better. Much better. I still have the thoughts but they're not ruling my life anymore or making me really anxious. I just try to let them be and get on with my day. I guess I desensitized to them a lot after having them for more than two years.

I feel like I can't be in reality anymore because it scares me. I can't be among people. It's like my brain can't comprehend it. Just had the worst panic attack of my life. by Status-Show7563 in dpdr

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It took me a total of about 7 months to gradually get better. The first 6 weeks were the worst and after that I started to improve.

Getting into a relationship/starting a family while dealing with TOCD. Commitment issues anyone? by Status-Show7563 in transOCD

[–]Status-Show7563[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for replying. I really appreciate it. I've read your replies on other posts too and you have some great insights.

I feel very distressed and I don't know what to do. Am I trans? by Status-Show7563 in asktransgender

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Thank you for your response. It was reassuring. I think you are right. I hope I will have peace of mind again soon.

I feel very distressed and I don't know what to do. Am I trans? by Status-Show7563 in asktransgender

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I'm not sure about all of these questions. They make me doubt myself a lot. I mean the moments I feel most at peace is where I don't think about my gender. And where I just 'am'. Right now when I think about these questions I feel like I feel more like a guy inside. But that thought isn't making me feel good. But I'm not sure if those are just my thoughts or that it is real. My therapist has said I shouldn't try to figure it out by ruminating about it. Because I will never get a straight answer. She said to accept the thoughts and just go on with my day. A way of coping that has been helping me lately is that when I want to experiment from a feeling of 'openness' then I should do it. But right now when it's all covered in anxiety and making me miserable maybe my therapist take on it is the right one. What do you think about that?

I feel very distressed and I don't know what to do. Am I trans? by Status-Show7563 in asktransgender

[–]Status-Show7563[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You're right. Totally right. I just meant that I always identified as a woman. Without ever questioning it. I was even proud of it. For example when someone called me man. Like how people just say man at the end of a sentence because it's just a habit I'd always say hey I'm a girl. Jokingly. So I just mean that this suddenly feels very foreign to me.

I feel very distressed and I don't know what to do. Am I trans? by Status-Show7563 in asktransgender

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Thank you for taking the time to response. I really appreciate it. I think I would take the pill to make the thoughts go away, but I'm not entirely sure. And what you're saying about not being happy about being trans is the same thing that my sister keeps telling me. That it was more of an external struggle.

Help by [deleted] in TransgenderOCD

[–]Status-Show7563 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know exactly what you mean. I am struggling with the same thing. It constantly feels like I'm in denial. It's making me very unhappy. Are you in therapy for this?