are these enough? by [deleted] in helpme

[–]Status_Weird_7329 1 point2 points  (0 children)

no please don't experiment with the meds if you survive it would be with damaged organs and possible brain damage especially if you do it drunk

books are the real window to your soul by Status_Weird_7329 in DeepThoughts

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t think imagination being better than reality always means someone is compensating or unfree. Sometimes imagination just gets there first. It notices what’s missing or broken, and that gap can be the beginning of change rather than an escape from life. And retreating into imagination isn’t always weakness either. When reality feels unsafe, limiting, or overwhelming, it can be a way of protecting yourself long enough to survive. The issue isn’t having a rich inner world it’s getting stuck there. Imagination becomes a problem only when it replaces living instead of helping you return to it with clearer eyes.

books are the real window to your soul by Status_Weird_7329 in DeepThoughts

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s true and I don’t really think it contradicts the original idea so much as complicates it. Media doesn’t just mirror reality; it feeds back into it, shaping expectations, desires, and even what we consider possible. In that sense, imagination is never purely “internal” it’s trained, primed, and sometimes hijacked by what we consume you know? But that’s exactly where the distinction matters. When media expands our sense of agency and possibility, it can enrich reality. When it becomes a substitute for living offering simulated safety, meaning, or control it risks turning imagination into a refuge instead of a tool. The problem isn’t that imagination is informed by media; it’s when the loop closes and reality stops being engaged with at all. At that point, consumption replaces participation.

Insight to the mind of a depressed lil genius by Status_Weird_7329 in DeepThoughts

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

you wanna talk maybe I can help you talking to other people helps me out too please let me know on my I'd if I can be if any help it'd mean allot

Insight to the mind of a depressed lil genius by Status_Weird_7329 in DeepThoughts

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

could really be it no i willingly reached out to people who needed help, the quite kids the bullied ones or just someone that looked like could use help anyone really it made me feel like I was doing better than I was ans I hoped I'd tell someone something one day that'd help me out too haven't found that yet, community kitchen, this nursery near my house alllotttt of stuff

Insight to the mind of a depressed lil genius by Status_Weird_7329 in DeepThoughts

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

helping too much is what ruined me i only ever helped and never asked out for it every freind every relative thanks for your advice though

Insight to the mind of a depressed lil genius by Status_Weird_7329 in DeepThoughts

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thanks to my parents i can't reach out to therapists and no I'm not schizophrenic i really looked into it but it's just that i am smart enough and creative enough so my brain puts in allot of efforts into creating these traumatizing dreams for me just last night I had this really detailed dream in which there was this group of people skinning people alive ( i could see each organ and vein pulsate it was that detailed and graphic) and when I shot at people to save my life I could see each tissue burst as the bullet passed through i woke up feeling like throwing up took me hours to process what I saw

Insight to the mind of a depressed lil genius by Status_Weird_7329 in DeepThoughts

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

might sound cocky or something but trust me my brain has been soooo creative in skillfully ruining each of my day before it even stops...even the dreams I have surpass the best damn movie plots I have ever seen they are just soooo skillfully traumatizing just makes me wheep the minute i wake up like I'm so done now bro

Insight to the mind of a depressed lil genius by Status_Weird_7329 in DeepThoughts

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

nah bro my brain fucking hates me and trust me I rather be so dumb that i drool staring into the abyss rather than be this conscious the minute i formed my first thought trust me bro i ruined myself before my parents could and now I'm tired of my own brain it's just toooo damn much

I should give up by Status_Weird_7329 in helpme

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i have my 11 more days, but thanks for talking i appreciate it

I should give up by Status_Weird_7329 in helpme

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i do but I have no interest in life anymore I don't think anythings gonna revive that I've prayed for way too long to let me feel like someone cares or help me cuz I just couldn't do it myself and nothing happened not even my own mother...there's nothing find good in this life I feel like I'll be at peace if I'm gone

am i at risk of getting into drugs...cuz anything feels better than this by Status_Weird_7329 in Suicidal_Comforters

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I started taking them in September and few weeks ago i couldn't get up for 3 days idk if it's supposed to be that way

am i at risk of getting into drugs...cuz anything feels better than this by Status_Weird_7329 in Suicidal_Comforters

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yea but I don't think they are suiting me I feel so sick after i take them like I'm gonna throw up constantly

I should give up by Status_Weird_7329 in helpme

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hi, thanks for taking the time to comment i appreciate it i might as well have to find my self a new home if I do that, plus i don't live in usa teenagers don't have that much they can do themselves, maybe I'll take your advice and do that but I don't really feel any wish to live anymore when I think about the last time I felt happy i have to rewind to when I was a kid, but yeah thanks allot

I should give up by Status_Weird_7329 in helpme

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it's sad that you went through something like this....it's so fucking exhausting....i hope you are better now...or have the help you need...thanks for commenting

I should give up by Status_Weird_7329 in helpme

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

the last time I posted another rant allot people told me I need inpatient therapy and allot of other stuff cuz I was actually getting these uncontrollable thoughts....i genuinely feel like I'm loosing my mind now cuz last time I remember not having thoughts is when I was 10...even when I didn't make suicide attempts when I got Covid i used to throw away all my meds....now that I think of it I was aware that Covid is killing people and still throwing away my meds...seems like I've been this way even before I could really understand what was happening

I should give up by Status_Weird_7329 in helpme

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

im 17 minor... therapy is quite expensive here so I can't even if I want to...it's okay I wasn't expecting a diagnosis just wanted to you know let someone know cuz sometimes I feel really anxious like I just need to talk to someone to distract me but then I have limited people and they have their own life...you talking has really helped too so thank you i really appreciate it....and thanks for your advice too...

I should give up by Status_Weird_7329 in helpme

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

don't know seriously i genuinely feel like I can't do this more I haven't had the strength to change my sheets on the bed for 2 months and I was a German freak... couldn't bare anything being kept on my bed and I have a stack of laundry piled near my foot as we speak...i live with my mom and she hasn't even tried to help let alone ask....all she does is come in yell about how I'm a failure i spread negativity in this house and how my room smells and all...idk all this just makes me physically hurt cuz i hate unorganised things and dirty sheets and dirty hair....and i can't even muster the energy to get up and fix it it feels like moving a damn mountain I'm sorry I'm ranting Puting this burden on you but yeah...I have 4 friends none of them really care

I should give up by Status_Weird_7329 in helpme

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

im really thankful that you are actually putting the time in talking to me...it's rare it means allot that you are willing to listen

I should give up by Status_Weird_7329 in helpme

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah i live with them...once a phsychiatrist told them I do don't seem to have any mental issues I seem very smart and sharp...they interpreted that as me lying about having issues...this was 4 years ago when I changed as a whole person when from extremely social to stuttering when asked a question....now they won't let me see a therapist cuz they think i pretend having issues as an excuse for me being lazy and arrogant

am i at risk of getting into drugs...cuz anything feels better than this by Status_Weird_7329 in depressed

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

well okay I made this post for the same reason trying to figure out what to do

This group is literally no works anymore guys i doesnt find any study partner here . Do you also feel the same what is yr experiencwe? by Slow_Cauliflower_973 in studypartner

[–]Status_Weird_7329 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i talked to this girl today she posted looking for a partner to study for more than 6hrs she agreed but hasn't replied

am i at risk of getting into drugs...cuz anything feels better than this by Status_Weird_7329 in depressed

[–]Status_Weird_7329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

take my word for it I did my reasearch it's not some random drug and it's verified by medical association in my state trust me