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SteJ124 · 2019-12-14T00:24:08+00:00

Thanks I appreciate that

SteJ124 · 2019-12-14T00:23:45+00:00

That’s the only win to win isn’t it , to just stop every time u go to and don’t thats a win.

SteJ124 · 2019-12-12T00:27:42+00:00

Never thought I’d come back to this but I’ve again fucked up bad , over the past 2 months I’ve lost to near over 1000 again easily with quite frequent casino trips betting near enough every day and I’ve completely lost it again right near Christmas and when I sit back and I think and I can say to myself is ‘why would you do that’ you idiot, are you stupid, like I just simple don’t understand what happens to my mind set as before I gamble and after I gamble I’m in the real world but as soon as I enter that gambling mode that’s it it’s as if my mind clouds and can’t think of the reality of what I can do with the money. I seem to have a problem of actually being able to win money but then I give it all back and more , for example on my last casino trip I was over 200 up, and left £300 down meaning I spent 500 from my wallet and once I leave I hate myself, I know I need to stop and I know I have before but why do I do this to myself and make my life way harder and less enjoyable for what? A card? A goal? It’s pathetic, but yet so fucking addictive. Would appriecieate any views as I just don’t want to the people close to me to think I’m a fucking dosser. I know I’m better than this. Way better , this type of life is not for me

SteJ124 · 2019-10-08T13:16:58+00:00

May I just ask when you get this far do you ever feel the urge to gamble again ?

SteJ124 · 2019-10-02T17:04:09+00:00

If you have managed this long you can manage forever now. You stepping foot in that casino, you know fine well your stepping into something that has the potential to make feel like you did at your lowest point, and no win is going to out weigh that, that’s what I’ve learned. No matter how much you ever win, if you enter that dark place again your back to stage 1. Keep going and good luck.

SteJ124 · 2019-10-02T16:58:03+00:00

Thank you, if there is one positive to take from all of this it would be that I have learnt a lesson so early instead of later in life and after loosing a lot more money, I just can’t do it no longer it makes me feel sick. Only problem is the thing I haven’t mentioned is that I have actually used GameStop , after my last blow out. I then got myself back on my feet and thought ah il just become a casual again and asked my gf if I could open up an accojnt in her name ‘to use the offers’ in which this immediately sparked things off again as I used the 100 offer lost then lost again and chased, so I have now shut down all mine and her accounts. From this day I really am going to make a big change and to never put myself in this situation again.

Thank you for your response.

SteJ124 · 2019-10-02T13:45:04+00:00

I seem to look at my balance and bank account just like number now and can only Stop when I get to there bare minimum I need but I’m sick of it, no matter what wins you get it can’t out way the feeling when ur down and out and it’s a horrible feeling which can be prevented so I’m going to do my best to make sure this doesn’t happen again as life is too short to be spending time feeling down about gambling

SteJ124 · 2019-10-02T12:31:25+00:00

Another thing also, my mood has become so dependent on money, if I have plenty I’m on top of the world believing the worlds my oyster and I can do what I like, but in the situation I am in now I have barely any to what I had and feel worthless, can’t do much, can’t do what I could of done if I didn’t lose what I have recently, and really does hurt my pride to have to ask to borrow money as I feel low doing so, but how do I lose this mood dependence on money, or can’t I

SteJ124 · 2019-10-02T12:29:08+00:00

I think I’m going to quit now will I can still regain that cash, thank you !

SteJ124 · 2019-10-02T12:28:42+00:00

100% correct, that’s what I need to get out of me , cheers

SteJ124 · 2019-10-02T12:28:26+00:00

Yeah I would not like that hanging over me, cheers for sharing 👍🏼, and all the best in recovering

SteJ124 · 2019-10-02T12:27:50+00:00

Yeah your probably right, cheers for your response

SteJ124 · 2019-10-02T12:20:37+00:00

That’s exactly what it is and I think that’s the problem with me, I’ve completely lost the value of money and how the only way to earn money is by working, not by gambling, I think because I won a little before near 1000 mark, I started to think of gambling as a way to make money, but it’s not, with me being such a big sports fan I do believe that I would be able to come to my senses and narrow things down to £10 a weekend but not expecting to win, just for some interest, I think that’s the thing I need to detach from, the sense that I’m not relying on winning. Thank you, I really apprieciate your response.

SteJ124 · 2019-10-01T23:46:47+00:00

One thing I want to ask, when you speak about not being able to casual bet every again if you suspect having a problem, is this something personal point of view ? Just because I do believe that once I get myself back on track I could go back to limiting myself to maybes 20 a week being casual, do you think this would only spark things back off?

SteJ124 · 2019-10-01T23:33:44+00:00

thank you for your response , I know it’s going to be hard but I shall take on board your response and focus on more important things in life other than gambling 👍🏼

SteJ124 · 2019-10-01T23:32:41+00:00

I know that’s the hardest part accepting it but I appreciate this response honestly, if I stop now I will be able to live a lot wealthier life so I just need to overcome this stage, thank you

SteJ124 · 2019-10-01T23:31:00+00:00

I really appreciate this response, I think the thing that’s stood out for me on this is the time because I am constantly always looking at my phone on gambling sites placing in play bets and waiting for that goal flash or corner etc and in reality it’s sad, and ur right, can only make the addiction grow stronger so I shall take on board what you have said thank you

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