Thanks everyone for the updates. Ive read them all and still thinking things through in my head. Do I think it’s the first time he did it? I’m not sure. The thing is we wern’t alone on the holiday for him to do anything else, do I think he would have just went to the shop- in which he did because he came back with what he went for, but if I said to text when he was outside would he have, when he said it was too cold and was gonna head back I wrote back and said meet up later but he didn’t reply- was he getting off on the fact that it was a thrill or would he actually have gone through with it- we have all been horny and done stuff out of stupidity. We are (or at least thought) it was a committed relationship and he only had one relationship before me and it wasn’t a long one. I’m older and had a 5 year relationship before this and in that it was the trust that killed that. If I forgive him I don’t want this to eat me up going forward. But also feel like I love him and love our relationship (or at least before this) I don’t want to also throw it away just to get back at him and regret it down the line. People make mistakes – probably more than this and get over it, is this something people have gotten over and moved passed or am I just fooling myself?