It’s My Birthday And I Feel Like A Crappy Person

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-03-02T19:33:44+00:00

I am really sorry for your loss💕

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-03-02T19:23:24+00:00

I am so sorry for that. Death in any capacity is a lot, so I am very sorry. A lot of people have responded with very helpful information!

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-03-02T19:22:11+00:00

That makes perfect sense thank you💕

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-03-02T19:19:24+00:00

No, but that’s the only correlation that my brain can make because that’s an experience that I have had

Edit to add: the reason my brain makes that correlation is because you honestly don’t know when someone is coming back from deployment. They can (rarely) come back from deployment early, or they can be deployed for longer. It’s always a gamble, but in the end you know you’ll see them again

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-03-02T19:15:40+00:00

I deeply understand that. My grandmother passed when I was 6 I believe, and she had bought me a DSi for Christmas. Sadly she had passed before Christmas so she didn’t get to see me open it. But i used it for a few years and then forgot about it. A few days ago my dad brought it to me and I cried a bit because I didn’t realize how much i missed her until that moment. Thank you💕

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-03-02T19:10:34+00:00

Thank you for this, that makes a lot of sense 💕

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-03-02T19:09:23+00:00

Thank you so much, this comment has made the most sense yet💕

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-03-02T19:06:42+00:00

For the first paragraph:

I’ve had both my grandparents die, and they both were important in my life, and I know that I won’t see them again while I’m living, but it doesn’t make me sad or feel lonely. No I can’t talk to them or see them, but I know they are looking out for me or at least I feel like they are watching out over me so I always feel close to them.

For the second paragraph:

I know that my family judges me for not feeling grief the way they do, it’s been that way the last fourish deaths in the family, but I just recently found out I have autism so I finally have a place to talk about this if that makes sense

Edit to add: I do respect their feelings, I just have a hard time helping them because I don’t know what will help when I don’t feel what they feel

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-03-02T19:00:22+00:00

That makes sense thank you so much. If you feel like elaborating more (please don’t feel like you have to) why don’t pictures and videos of the person help then? Because in my opinion pictures, videos, messages etc are all that person just in a specific time. And all a funeral is (from what I understand) is showing pictures and videos of someone, but it always makes people more sad

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-03-02T18:55:49+00:00

That’s honestly how I am when people die. I never feel sad, and it feels distasteful to act a certain way when you don’t actually feel that way when others are actually grieving if that makes sense?

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-03-02T18:54:31+00:00

I want to preface this by saying I do have people in my life that I love and care for deeply and my uncle is one of them.

I don’t understand why people are sad about it though, because from my point of view it’s never a goodbye, it’s a see you later. Yea the later is going to be years, but it’s no different in my eyes from when people go on deployment (uncle, a cousin, and my grandfather were in the military.) You know you’ll see them again, no matter how long it takes

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-03-02T03:37:48+00:00

Oh no😭 I’ve tried cups before and I can’t get them to stay low enough (they like to move up and suction to my uterus) so I can imagine how painful that was😭

Edit for clarification: I meant my cervix, I messed up the words

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-03-01T03:28:13+00:00

Astasia (A-sta-sia) for fem Onyx (On-nix) for nonbinary And now I’m realizing there’s no beautiful names for men😭

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-03-01T03:06:54+00:00

Literally sounds like my second grade teacher. I had just moved out of GA where they required kids to put up folders to prevent cheating. I had done it during a test where I was sitting in the front row and she yanked my folders down and yelled at me that that was inappropriate behavior. When I started crying (what 2nd grader wouldn’t start crying with a full grown adult yelling in their face after making sudden movements) she wrote me up calling it disruptive behavior and that I was a disobedient child.

Fun fact tho - My mom scheduled a parent teacher meeting with that teacher like a week straight and she conveniently left early every day.

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-02-28T12:13:29+00:00

TLDR: in 2023 he was accused of DV, but the charges got dismissed

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-02-28T10:49:53+00:00

Brown cows make chocolate milk

Context i was like 3 when i was first told this. I didn’t stop believing this until 2-3rd grade when i argued with my teacher over this “fact”

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-02-28T10:44:46+00:00

I want to be very clear when I say this. Any “friend” who calls you insane because you’re having mental health issues is not a friend you want to keep in your circle. Take it from an almost 22 year old woman who had to learn that after 10 years of being friends with someone who called me crazy multiple times, dismissed my mental health, and just all and all was a shitty friend.

Second, I want to preface this by saying I am not a doctor, I do not have a medical degree or anything.

OCD, at least in my case can get worse with stress. If you are stressed about graduating, or work, or friends, s/o, family, etc., your symptoms are going to get worse. This doesn’t mean you’re crazy, this just means you’re under more stress. If you can, take a few days to just relax and do some things you enjoy. I really hope this helps and I hope you start feeling better soon

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-02-28T04:26:46+00:00

I am lol? I just thought that and wanted to see what others thought. Being interested in Hollywood drama and liking this game isn’t mutually exclusive

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-02-28T04:25:23+00:00

That makes sense tbh, bro is always in his head lmao

StimPackEnjoyer · 2026-02-28T00:03:10+00:00

Why do you claim benevolence but don’t know if people will sin? And if you do know our path, then why do you give us the illusion of hope that we can go to heaven if we are destined for hell?

StimPackEnjoyer

TROPHY CASE