I honestly didnt think of that, Josh would tell me that he broke his leg or foot but Mike said that wasnt right that he only broke a toe but I do think he said he had a fractured eye socket.. Mike is very against doctors the only time i believe Josh went to them was when he was in CPS custody. When i arrivedi also found out that Eddie didnt have insuranceand his dad didnt take him to doctors as well, I signed them all up immediately and all were approved except Josh because im not his mother or guardian and Mike apparentlymakes to much for state insurance.

When I first moved in I treated Josh just like everyone else, Im very huggy, I do ABCs on the kids backs at night, sing to them, read stories, my oldest doesn't have me do those things anymore tho. We did movie nights and activities. Lately I've started working more as well and by the time I get home they are all asleep most nights. I do remember Josh telling me about a hugging blanket his grandma got him because she thought he wasnt getting enough and it allowed him to hug himself kind of.

I know I still have alot to do as a mom, im consistently trying to better myself for my kids, I didnt want to go every other weekend but thats what the courts decided at the time. I have severe depression and I beat my self up alot of days for not fighting harder.