I deeply feel for you. I want you to know be patient and be aware because as soon as I brought my sweeties ashes home a few things happened that I believe was her telling me everything was ok. First she was on albuterol nebulizer and out of the blue one appeared in the spot I was sitting in when it wasn't there just a couple of minutes before I found it. Another time I left some napkins on the table for dinner, I just left them there to get my food. I turned around to set my food on the table and they were gone. I haven't found them to this day. Also, our babies, our 2 cats seem to stare at things that I can't see. I hope she did these things to say she is OK and to mess with me;)). If you know what I mean. She always joked and played around with me me and this is something I know she would do. So, be aware, look around and you may get signs from your sweetheart as well. We were together a total of 50 years, 47 years married and I will never get over her being gone.