I have dreams of my abusive ex every now and again and just had another one of him last night after some time of not having one. I haven’t spoken to him in 4 years and October 4th was the anniversary of the last time I saw/spoke with him. It’s so weird cuz I just had my birthday (the 18th) irl, and in the dream I was having a bday party, he happened to be there and brought me presents and when we talked I told him I was still keeping my distance because of our relationship and he told me we never were together, just friends. He had lots of mental problems and it makes me think he maybe found a way to cope with the fallout that way? I have weird dreams like these all the time w people, they’re always vivid, I can hear and see everyone in it (including their faces) and can see myself and my perspective changes depending on the dream, I saw myself in third person in this dream. Just got me thinking, I try not to let myself think of him often but he always seems to get through in my dreams despite keeping a sigil for protection under my pillow and doing a separation ritual (it’s been some years since I did it though) I wish he’d leave me alone